So I’m 30 years old my name is Michael I have an 8 year old son Christian who I get to see every other weekend if he wasn’t here and I wasn’t a father I don’t think I’d still be around. I’ve had so much loss in my life and I’m sure other can relate I grew up in an Italian life style with very loving grandparents aunts uncles, this is my dads side. Things began to unfold when my mom became a morphine addict found the internet and decided she didn’t love my dad and wanted more. Everything fell apart my dad tried to hold us together the best he could but myself and my two sibling were in a world of our own and looking back I wish I opened my eyes and stood up and stood beside a man who put his kids first before literally anything else. Anyway moving forward everything was torn my mom went on to date and screw around all high while my dad myself and my brother moved in with my grandparents we had no money so they took us in my sister went with my mom but didn’t last long we were trying to clean up this mess my mom made it my dad was a worried man money was his evil his stress my mom was sucking him dry whatever he had left went to my grandparents and us because he couldn’t say no and see us upset the stress and smoking and not being able to make things right ate him up. For a little bit I lived with my ex and my son in a basement and I invited my dad and brother for pizza they came we were chatting and laughing my dad said he had to pee a minute went by and we heard snoring from my room he was having a heart attack I brought him back once but it wasn’t enough he died I was destroyed after this my grandmother and grandfather were to fast forward to now I’m still here with my grandparents living with them to help and contribute my grandmother all of a sudden lost all function of her legs and body was hospitalized then sent home was getting better then got namonia and past away two days ago now it’s just going to be me and my grandfather but I know that some of my family will make him sell the house and go live with them for the remainder of his life while they basically tell me to figure it out I need help please anything to try and get ahead and be ready for the boot to the streets I’m not a bad person but I am the black sheep because I’ve gotten into some trouble before and now that’s all that ppl see my grandfather never wanted me to leave he has never tried to kick me out him a my grandmother was all I had but soon my grandfather will be pulled away from me I work construction amd work very hard I pay child support every month in full but my past self is eating my money what I have left anyway I just need a bit of help getting ahead something like having first and last or having some saving incase I lose everyone close I’m going to be left with no one soon but at least help me to have a roof and somewhere my son can call dads house. Thank you in advance and for others going through the same keep going keep waking up and pushing forward life to short and it’s starting to move really fast 