About me: I’m an 19 year old guy who’s struggling with life. I’m an atheist but ironically a little superstitious. I absolutely love playing video games and minding my own business. I’m shy and very quiet and generally avoid people most times. I am kind of poor at this point where we have to get financial help almost every time. Living with mother and toddler brother but generally don’t feel well connected to them. I don’t really like being with anyone which includes my family.
It all started when I got in a community college last fall (2018). I am living with mom and little brother. I was working at a warehousing temp agency company with decent minimum wage pay of $10/h. I’m in a community college because I wasn’t really a smart guy. But later on I planned to go to UNC to transfer. So I go through my classes, had to cut down to part time since the hours were too much to be able to do since community college was there, all seems normal. One day my mom drove to a loan place and put a title loan in my name and car. At the time I never knew what loans really were and shrugged it off. She used it for rent money and the rest for herself. Ended up making me pay for monthly bill for it. She said it was to help me be responsible and stuff (Can’t believe what a dumbass I was at the time). So afterwards I continue and finished the fall semester with a 3.0 GPA. Mom went and filled out a FAFSA for UNC. I never looked at it since she said she was done and finished (Again I’m a dumbass for not checking). I also quit my job because they kept cheating me over and over again.
2019 hits and I was ready to start the spring semester. Then my mom all of a sudden said we were not staying at the house since she was convinced that the place was too old (I thought it was good and didn’t need moving out) and also we were 30 minutes far from my community college. So we moved out and stayed at motels. She wanted to move near my school but didn’t even find a place yet since she forgot about making triple the rent to even move in. So we’re struggling to find/make money to pay for these cheap motels. Had financial help from friends and father. This went on for a month and a half sadly and finally found a place that we got into for double the rent they wanted ($125 more than original rent lol). So we moved in and settled in. The place was worse than our last apartment. So we continued living life, got a new job as a 6 hour part time janitor for Saturday and Sunday. I participated paying for internet bill this time. And internet was very limited since the area of the new place is pretty deserted from everywhere else. So we have gotten limited internet (100mb) and went on from there. My pay was very limited to $2xx every two weeks. It was extremely hard to do 3-4 classes a semester with even a part time job during weekdays (I have a hard time focusing in school and getting mauled with homework every class). After school ended (barely passing), I ended up quitting the job and struggled to find a new one. I should have tried to get another job while I was working but I never did (still a dumbass). Went one month trying and always kept getting denied. I also have 3 credit cards and all of them are maxed out and would be late. It was awful living like that but then the mail came and I got accepted to UNC (from credits). During that month my mother and I had a fight and she ended up telling me to leave the house. I ended up leaving the apartment, canceling my internet bill, packed up my things and went to live in my car. She didn’t think I would leave so she ended up regretting and telling me to come back. I kept denying and started to like living in my car. Found it more easier to live than people think. Everyone think it’s horrible to live in a car and I don’t blame them since they never lived in one. Then family members keep trying to tell me to come back and I kept denying. I hated my mom at that point and all the shit she has done to me in my life. For some reason they decided to look and pay for apartments for me and kept bothering me for other stuff. So I told them I’d come back (Wasn’t a fan of someone doing all that for me when I wouldn’t do the same for them). Turned back on the internet and kept going through life. A month later, still no job, still no luck. I don’t know why I kept going downhill. Then all of a sudden at night time, a 16 year old girl runs into my neighbors parked car that hit right into my parked car. She was speeding in a parking lot (Like 40 mph). She didn’t even have insurance on the car either. Afterwards the girl ended up getting charged (don’t know the amount), neighbor couldn’t afford the rent and got kicked out, and I don’t have a car anymore. My car only had liability insurance (we’re poor) so they couldn’t do anything at all. Gone for good into a towing lot that charged $30 per day there. A month later I finally got a job (this month of July) that gives a good decent pay. After the first week of July we all found out that the 16 year old girl gave wrong info on police report (honestly hate how she’s only getting charged and not arrested). So my liability insurance is about to give $3000 in compensation but got stopped because of the title loan on my car. So I can’t get the compensation until title loan goes away. (Never goes away if paid monthly). Another bad thing was that I forgot to pay my internet bill before and got billed $177. Afterwards we turn to look at UNC status and school with start on 2nd week of August. We went to the office and found out that the FAFSA wasn’t completed. Turns out my mom didn’t complete it even after I asked. So it takes 30 days for verification and more days to get awarded and the day we went was the last week of July. So I can’t go to UNC anymore since we don’t have the money. And turns out my mom found a friend from her job that wanted to move in with her as a roommate. So she’s kicking me out and I will be living in the streets next week. I ran out of options and turned towards this site and wrote this whole blob of my life. So I don’t have a car, will be homeless within a week. This has been one of the worst summers in my entire life and doubt it will get any better. So I write my goals on what to do after all this.
First I need to pay off that title loan (Balance of near $1000), get a car (literally any car that’s been used that isn’t broken is fine and also won’t be hard to get I hope since I’ll get the compensation money), get an apartment to live in, eventually fill out FAFSA myself and try to get schooling, live my life out. Again I’m a huge dumbass and have a dumbass mother that doesn’t give a shit about me. Even a dollar would be appreciated at the highest rate. If you got all the way down here then thank you for reading about my messy life. Have a good day everyone.