This is so embarrassing but I don’t know what else to do. I’m one of those people that would do anything for anyone and trust way to easily. I ended up in a relationship that after three years I got left helpless and without hope. In the very beginning I was accused regularly of cheating which was not true so i started separating myself from everyone and eventually lost my job because I couldn’t stand to be around my boss and couldn’t do the things I needed in fear of getting accused. Why stay at this point? I felt like one day he would see and realize. So after I lost my job he wanted me to work for him which I agreed to I thought if I wasn’t around other people it would make things easier yet it was just an opportunity for him to control and hurt me at my weakest point. There was a shooting at his nightclub that looked like was accidental however had it not been looked like it was intended for him….he blamed me. He went to jail for I’m not sure the real reason…blamed me saying I was an informant for the cops. I’ve been called stupid, retarded, worthless, a whore and I tried as hard as I could to be good to him. He owed me money and fired me without payment gave me $100 and told me he’d order “his” puppy food not to worry about it and didn’t. My pup Thor is the only reason I still have any fight still left in me. My ex bought the lil guy for security and the first thing he did when we got home with him was beat him and i mean literally the first thing. The first opportunity I had to get him away from there I did. I owe a tremendous amount in cc debt that is now in collections, my car gets repossessed very soon if i don’t make a payment and after that I’ll be homeless.
I hate asking for help I hate being helpless but I don’t know what to do. It’s hard looking for a job with no clothes and no phone. He waited till the opportune time and caused as much damage as he could knowing I have no friends or family anymore because they saw what i could not.