Hi, I don’t know if anyone will read this but I will still try as I am at the brink of depression right now and I am so desperate that I don’t know where to turn anymore.
As the pandemic started I was laid off work and everything went downhill from there. My husband was laid off also but he found other job after a long while searching. I couldn’t get back to work as schools closed and I had to stay home with my son. That’s when we started falling behind on rent and bills.After a while, when schools reopened I went back to work and everything seemed to go better .
So it happened I was laid off again when the third wave came and it happened the same to my husband. I got pregnant with my second child which now he is 8 weeks old.
I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and high blood pressure and the bills for the medication ( insulin and labetalol) just killed us.
Winter comes, bigger bills, and then around Christmas I found out my mom has lung cancer, terminally and she has not long to live . My dad is already bedbound as he suffered few strokes so this really hits me hard specially emotionally.
Obviously the little money we could have had , had to be split between all that: my mom’s needs, my parent’s really as they are poor people, my bills which I fell even more behind and finally just a bit on rent. It’s also Christmas, my son had to have Santa coming to him also.
Same time my landlord comes saying we can stay one more year , which was good news for once.
So, this grey Christmas passes, we fall behind on bills and rent, my husband gets a second job , but still no improvement. We struggle and struggle and as I give birth my husband has to take a break from work, unpaid time to help me with the baby and the older kid ( school drop off , pick up, groceries and so) after me having a c-section and being kept in the hospital for a week after because of my high blood pressure. And how would it go down with all the bad news?!
Finally after a week I was let go home. I was supposed to follow up on my condition which I did once…I owe money for that too now …That was January this year.
Fast forward last week, my landlord calls, he wants us out NOW.
I am crying since December and I haven’t stopped yet, there’s no way I can pay him what I owe him and then move and find a new place. I just don’t have the money. I owe him 8000€ , I should have at least 4000 more to find a new place and we live with 458€ a week.
I don’t know what to do, where to turn, I honestly see myself on the streets and that scares me. How will this affect my school aged kid? He will be bullied for being homeless, he will suffer for sure damage for life.
How am I going to prepare the formula for the baby? How am I going to feed my child a healthy meal ?
I don’t know but please, please please someone help us because I am losing my mind and I have no more tears left.
Please , someone, if anyone sees this help us please
And thank you, thank you! for any help and support