I am seeking help with basic needs that some people don’t ever even think about. I will share what information I can to convey the desperation I feel and to express how sincere I am in saying I have no other means to help myself. We unexpectedly lost the only cash income we have been receiving to support myself, my husband and five children ages ten years to 8 months due to a clerical error. My grandmother in laws death in May, followed by my Father committing suicide in July led to an honest mistake with paperwork which led to the local Social Services Caseworker reducing and then closing my family public assistance case the day before the County Government was hacked and all the internet based communication and social service assistance program systems were shut down until further notice. While the State and County departments upgrade their security I can not call to amend the mistaken closure. I have to find a way to go in person and then they have thirty days to respond with whether they will reopen my case or deny my benefits. To be honest this is a very personal, very immediate need and I am going to share as much as I can to convey how desperate I am to find people who believe in helping others less fortunate. I have always been hard-working, polite and giving person. Despite being disabled my whole life I worked tirelessly to make financial ends meet from the time I was twelve until I was twenty seven. Circumstances outside my control led me to homelessness as a young mother but I actively sought help through various social service programs available to people like me and have fought to get and keep the resources we’ve attained. I can only hope that there are people who like me understand financial circumstances vary greatly and success can be destroyed in a moment. My mother gave up and took her life at 45 years old. I took that loss hard, but chose to live my life to the fullest and started a family with my best friend. I promised to always strive for the best life possible for us and our children. Teaching them that there is no quitting life and I will always find the strength to wake up each day and be their mother, face my problems, give what I can to others, appreciate all that I have and love my life to the best of my ability. I greatly appreciate that I live in a place that offers diverse support to people in hard times. That being said I live in a place with some of the highest housing, and other related costs in the country. In terms of cash in hand, a mere $509 dollars a month to care for all of our needs outside direct services we received that amount did not come close to covering everything. I used survey sites, coupons, rebates, and other Internet based applications to increase my cash into enough to get the most I could typically alternating between bills and toiletries. With this unexpected closing of my case I’ve literally nothing to work with. I have overdue bills for my children’s internet and propane to cook meals, I sold my car because I couldn’t afford registration or insurance. Today we have no toilet paper, no shampoo or conditioner, no money for public transportation. Over the last five years my father would help by sending things we need when he could afford to. Throughout my life I have not had much of a traditional family life and though my father had not helped much lately I did whatever was needed to be able to get by. When he took his life in July I was rendered emotionally destitute. I need help to get back on my feet. I need help until social services can reinstate my case benefits. I may update this with progress and more direct details but at this time I have written this twice and lost my whole application due to poor internet service and had to start over. Any cash we receive will be put toward baby diapers, wipes, formula, baby shampoo and food then towards propane, children’s toiletries, household cleaning supplies and pest control services. We need cash to get public transportation to social services offices, for payments to grocery delivery services and tips for the delivery person, for copies of medical records to secure disability and internet service to seek and perform employment from home. Every contribution will help me secure our basic needs and anything beyond that will go to keeping our rental home, restoring services we had, seeking legal counsel and trauma treatment for the effects of my parents Suicides on all of us. Moving toward financial independence each day is my goal. I will use the help received to break the cycle of poverty and mental illness that has plagued three generations of my family. If you choose to make a contribution please send it to the PayPal account below. Thank you for taking the time to read through this and for restoring my faith that people can build each other up at times of great sorrow and loss.