…but somehow it has come to be that I am in this position. Believe me, I hate it, and if I could see any other way, I would not be asking strangers for money online.
I thought I had my life mapped out, and everything was going along fine. I have 2 jobs, I have a kind family…why am I in this position I hear you ask? Well, all I can say is – we all fall down sometimes. I have found myself spiralling slowly downwards over the last few years. It almost feels like slow motion – for so long I was in denial that I couldn’t support myself financially. I can’t admit it to anyone around me – I have a kind family, for sure, but I could not live with myself if they found out that I was in this position. So I keep up the facade of everything being ‘fine’, and it is truly exhausting. I told people that I took a weekend job on top of my Monday-Friday job ‘because I get bored easily’. That’s not true – my mind and my body are broken from working 7 days straight! I took a weekend job because I found myself in a spiral of debt.
I don’t have a drug problem. I don’t have a gambling problem. I don’t smoke, I don’t drink. I didn’t lose money to an awful ex. I wasn’t the victim of a scam. I just got hit with a few big bills in short succession and the spiral began. And I can’t see a way out. Even working 2 jobs, I’m only making enough money to keep myself out of complete bankruptcy. I am desperate for just enough money to push me over that ledge, back to safe ground where I can begin again and not be constantly clawing my way up the cliff of debt upon debt.
So I am here, quite literally begging. I need £1000 to change my life – and it really will change my life. It will make me safe again – safe from myself and what I am afraid this situation will lead me to do to myself if I can’t get out. I don’t expect anyone to give me anywhere near that amount – why on earth would they?! I’ve read the stories on this site and they are truly heartbreaking. People who have gone through so much – they deserve the money so much more than I do. So all I am asking for is £1. Just one – and with luck, and hope and prayers, enough people might see this and have it in their heart to give me that kindness. And I promise that the day I am in a position to do the same, I will help everyone in whatever way I can.
So my plea to you is – £1. It may just save my life, in more ways than one. I wouldn’t be asking this if there was another way – I need to get over that ledge so I can start my life again. Thank you.