Hello, I’m currently 19 and I spent the last year living in abusive household. Within that one year, I was almost daily mentally and emotionally abused, manipulated, received death threads,was left with no communication with my other family members and friends and lost my savings.
At the end of 2019, I started living with my mom and her boyfriend. Before that I lived with my father, who was an alcoholic, which influenced my decision to leave back then.
Everything was really good at first. My mother and her boyfriend we’re both nice to me. But that quickly changed.
Her boyfriend, who has severe anger issues started making scandals daily. It was always for small and absurd things. I tried doing anything I could to make him stop and please him in order for him to stay calm, but it never worked.
He would scold us for hours, not even letting us explain or defend ourselves. He sometimes was more violent, breaking dishes and even hitting my mother. He forced me to give him all my savings for his debt that he blames on us. He forced me to stop meeting with my friends. He forced me to give up going to university and made me start a job in order to pay his debt.
For the last year thanks to all of this, I lived my days in fear and hiding. I would always hide my phone from him, because if he sees it, he’ll take away the only form of freedom I have. I developed strong cases of depression and anxiety. The suicidal thoughts I thought I left behind me came back. My physical health also suffered, since I started getting random headaches almost daily.
I have no freedom of expressing myself. I was forbidden from dying my hair, wearing earrings and make up, to even using conditioner or wearing clothes with signs or logos on them.
I tried running away once in December 2020, but it failed, since I didn’t think things through and had no money. I hate myself for going so far, yet not being able to escape this hell. I can’t turn to the police for help. In small town like this, he’s friends with the police and pretty much anyone. No one believes me! They all blame what’s happening to in this house to me and my mother for “not doing enough” or “being lazy” which is not the case.
I just want to leave this place once and for all! Please, help me!
Here’s my PayPal link: paypal.me/mimitheshipper
Thank you!
The image below is from a cut I got during another one of those scandals from a broken piece of glass. It’s all healed now, but It left a scar…