So, never new this site existed, nor have I asked strangers to understand my situation, but here is what I would like, 2000$ To move into a decent place for my sanity. I currently live with my folks, im 48 made to feel like I’m 12, Family can be exasperating at times, my older brother lives next door, he likes to get drunk and tell me what to do, doesn’t like me living with mom n dad doesn’t like my job (pizza delivery driver) doesn’t offer solutions or any type of positive support. Blocked his number again. I love my brother and this situation could end up with us not speaking to each other ever again. Which I’m not sure wouldn’t be a good thing. I’ve learned what my triggers are and a lot about what causes my feelings and the process of learning a new way to think and act is possible. I need to distance myself from the ones I love most and surround myself with encouraging friends that reinforce the positive things and help instead of hinder my growth. This is a hard thing to do.
when Covid hit I was in training to replace windows for safelight, (I worked in sunflower elevator most of my life, dirty boring work)I had just broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years and had nowhere to go, I moved in with my folks and collected the government pandemic unemployment on top of regular unemployment, which kept me earning more than I would have working..When that ran out I decided to change what I do for a living, I don’t want stress, so I tried pizza delivery and I’m surprised to learn how much I love my Job! I look forward to work and find myself volunteering to fill in, people always happy to see the pizza guy and tips are usually decent. (I’m going to start telling the non tippers they can tip me, I won’t fall!)
There is a little bump in the road at work, We don’t open till 6 now, our general manager quit, along with the girl below her and two drivers have put in there notice.. we can’t seem to find anyone that wants to work, down to 4 drivers and 3 inside the store, this brings my wages down quite considerably, But college starts soon so we should find help.
I applied for a loan to consolidate my bills, in the amount of $10,000. I should find out Monday if I’m approved..would be nice to move out with no loan, I wouldn’t be worried about if my tips will pay all my bills or not, if anyone feels real generous and would like to donate to my cause, you’d have a pizza for life anytime your in my town, by my store in Fargo ND.
I am asking for sympathy, But more than that, $12,000 would put me in a place Where I would pay off my cc”s and my loan, and it would pay a deposit along with my first months rent, to my own place, and my own space. I believe more in myself than I ever have, the higher power that I seek has led me through more than just religion, it’s taught me the power of mediation and centering myself, the power we all have inside ourselves,I’ve learned there are more things in this life and on this earth that I am just touching on, The negative feelings my family gives off will not allow me to move ahead, so I would forever be in one’s debt that found it within them to help me through. (I just noticed I was starting to rhyme! maybe I’m poet, and never allowed to no it!!)