Due to my family tracking down my social media, I have to go by a different name, so please call me Anna.
Long story short, I am from Central Asia, and I was sent to Canada to get a citizenship here through studying. I was forced to study in a college I didn’t choose myself, on a program I didn’t choose myself, only because it’s much cheaper here compared to other places. I had to go all alone to the other end of the world, and while I was thinking I’m strong enough to handle everything by myself, it all resulted in me developing social anxiety and severe depression, I became seriously mentally ill to the point I’m barely able to function. I’m scared to talk to people as I look different from others and everyone know that I’m a foreigner, and I worry about fitting here a lot. I’m not able to get any kind of mental help as my parents send me very limited amount of money that barely cover the cost of food, and in college counselors just tell me to go back home if I’m too mentally unstable to do anything. I’m all alone here, got no one to go to, and have nothing, and no money.
I have to live in one of the homestay families, because it’s cheaper compared to dorms, and I’m being treated horribly. (TW: sexual harassment) One of the homeowners was sexually harassing me, assuming that my English is bad, and he was talking about how pretty I am and that I need to show more of my body. When I asked for help and protection from others, I was told that I misunderstood it and that my English is broken and he was just being friendly with me. I cant move to a different place since my parents don’t want to waste money on moving my stuff to a different family. They are not in interested in my well-being, my safety, as long as I’m in Canada and they are dreaming about me getting them citizenship. I’m being treated just as some puppet.
Let me tell you more about myself. I am 19, I am an aspired writer and I want to study creative writing in university, I want to learn and I want to be amongst other people who share the same interests and passion with me, I want to create and share my work with the world and to make a difference. I have an amazing girlfriend, I love her so much, and she’s the best thing that ever happened to me. If it wasn’t her in my life, I’d be long gone.
My parents are not supportive, and they don’t want me to go to a university, even though they have enough of money to help me to get there, they just don’t want it. They don’t understand what kind of mental health issues I have, and they text and call me every day to verbally and emotionally abuse me. And I’m so tired that my life doesn’t belong to me, and that they are doing anything they want to be, only because of money. They are also very homophobic, so if they ever find out about me not being straight, my life is over.
My girlfriend lives in England. I need money to get a uk visa, and a flight ticket to meet with her. She’s the only person I have in my life, and I want to leave Canada as soon as possible to be with her, she is the only family I have.
Please. I need your help.