I never thought I would be in the situation I am in, especially at my age. I am 65, soon to be 66 and I took a chance on love and lost, and I need help to begin a new life and leave this place to go back home. On December 16, 2016, my husband of 30 years died suddenly and unexpectedly while we were visiting his mother in California. Our life was going so wonderfully. We had just found out we were accepted for a low-income home; I was almost finished with another semester of school and was close to receiving my degree in social and behavioral science minoring in early childhood education and had been on the Dean’s list each semester and we were going to buy land and begin to accomplish our lifelong dream of living off grid. When my husband died, I did not think I could go on but with the grace of God I was able to. I decided to stay in California because that is my home and my oldest grandson needed me. I was able to find a house to rent and lived on the financial aid I received for going to school. I was so happy and proud but when my landlord died, and my house was sold I had to move. It was a shock, and I did not know what to do or where to go and my school aid was about to end. I met a friend of a friend and we clicked and when he asked me to move with him to Oklahoma, I decided I would. A new beginning with a new love! I was so full of hope and dreams and love. Sadly, the beautiful dream I had turned into a nightmare. My boyfriend became abusive physically, mentally and emotionally. We lived in the country, and I was isolated. I had my van, my last hope to not become homeless but he took that away from me as well. I had lost my keys and bought a new ignition with keys, but he ruined it while putting it in. He promised he would fix it. Instead, he took it apart. Now it is in pieces with parts missing and I cannot afford to fix it and I doubt it would be worth the cost to do so. About two months ago he forcibly and violently threw me out of the house. I have no friends. I did not know where to go. Thankfully his cousin said I could move into a house that had been empty for years and was used as a drug house and I did but things have changed. I was told I would only have to pay utilities but now it is utilities plus $300 for rent. The utilities were shut off and I had to pay deposits and put them in my name. I had no food, no money, no car to try to find help. I applied for food stamps and was approved but they sent the wrong card. I did not know how to buy groceries since I have no car and the stores are too far away to walk to plus it has been extremely hot with temperatures one 100. I thought I could order groceries through Instacart, but they do not service this area, but I was able to buy some food from Amazon. I have never felt so alone before in my life and although I have gone through some bad times in my life, I have always found a way, but I can’t seem to this time. I live on social security and SSI, and it is hard to save any money to either fix my van or buy another. I want to return home to California. I have a daughter there and friends but without a vehicle I cannot do anything. I cannot go to the doctors (I have heart failure and other illnesses) I cannot go to the dentist, and I have a bad cavity in a front tooth that wants to abscess, I cannot buy fresh groceries, and I cannot leave this lonely sad and near hopeless situation I am in. I do not want a new van. Instead, I want an old van like my 97 GMC Safari, one I could live in. I was able to get help from the church I used to attend. They are holding $500 for me to use to purchase another van or to fix mine. I have found that vans on average cost between $2,500 to $3,500 for one that would be big enough to live in. I have lost everything since I moved here and feel if things do not change for me soon, I will not live long. I was a young 65-year-old when I moved here but now, I feel 100. I hope I can find help here. I do not want to give up, I want to go home and live a simple life with the time I have left. If you cannot help financially, please pray for me. I really need help now and I hope I can receive help from the kindness of strangers here.