My whole life I have been taught that if you work hard you’ll be able to get far. I have worked hard, but it seems that something in life tends to have something against me. I came from an abusive family. My mom, a drug addict, my dad well, he was a predator. I never let my trauma or my abuse stop me. For 10 years I worked hard as an EMT trying to give back to the world while I worked hard. I’ve made my mistakes, I am not a saint, but I do my best to learn from my mistakes.
I was injured from a patient and had to give that up, I had PT and worked hard to get back on my feet and I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD. I was homeless for a bit, but I didn’t let that stop me. I crawled up from what I was and continued to work hard. I took buses for 2 hours just to work until I was able to afford a car. However, I was still with my mom and she was still abusive. I finally knew that I had to leave. So I did.
I trusted a friend to help me and I began a new life on my own halfway across the country so that my family couldn’t hurt me anymore. Instead of helping, I was stolen from. So I knew this was the best course for me. I have a job, a fulltime job. I work hard helping kids who went through similar trauma as I did. Hoping that they don’t have the same struggles that I had to through.
It’s not enough, I’m struggling and I fear that I am quickly falling. I have no one to ask for help, and no one to help me. I’m still working hard, pulling in overtime and trying to accomplish what I can. But my faith is wavering and I need help. I’ve never asked for help before as I’ve never had anyone to ask.
I am humbly asking for any help at all. Please, I want to keep going, I want to keep trying but I can’t do it alone. My bills are piling up as I had a rough go at my new beginning and I haven’t been able to catch up on my bills. I am now negative in my bank account and all I want is to be able to get ahead of my bills.
I will continue to work hard, I want to better at budgeting, and even wish to some day be able to go to college to further my chances in life. I’ll continue to work overtime, and put my all into it. I will pulling 16-18 hour shifts a day to be able to try to catch up myself. I haven’t given up, and I will succeed. I just need a little help in the mean time.
Any help would be a step forward.
Thank you for your time.