hello all 👋🏽
my name is Sabrina, i am 23 years old and live in Florida with, quite a predicament. if i’m going to be honest.. i feel like the things that are going on in my life, are only because i let them get to that point. my head hasn’t been completely screwed on right and i’m well aware with that. if you were to want to learn one thing about me, its that i would NEVER ask anyone around me for help, family or friends! my pride is entirely to deep for that. also, i’ve been down that road before and it doesn’t end well.. they always end up giving up on me or singling me out to others, which creates a lot of judgement towards me… sometimes i wish i could start over and do things differently but tend to forget that life’s just not that easy. about a year and some months ago i lost such a good, high enough, paying job working for a mental institution.. i did not have my own vehicle so i relied on friends and family to take me to work, which was of course was not their job but they did the best to help me out, eventually times got harder as those that would take me to work, weren’t able to take me anymore, which of course lead to me getting terminated. 😪 it shattered my heart so much, just because that was such a great job, and i enjoyed taking care of all my residents, but anyway after i lost my job, the same morning i recorded a video of myself and posted it on youtube, you could just see the devastation in my eyes. (if you want to watch the video, type in “shesogoofy” and scroll to the video that says “you will never believe what happened “) i was just so angry at the world, but most importantly myself. why couldn’t i just get my own vehicle when i had a chance and i never would have went through this.. nope, here i am now in the same predicament! 😩 i am beyond stressed! a year and some months later, here i am trying to help other people instead of helping myself first. i cant help it, its like a trait. its like i’ve been stuck in a low place, and i don’t want anyone i love to go through it as well, so i’ll give my all for them to be on their feet, if that means i suffer in silence. i am recently started back working in December and have been hitching rides to work but lately its been getting way to difficult. i feel as if im at the point where, if i have one more call in.. i am going to loose my job. 😭 i really do not want yo loose my job so i am begging you, someone, anyone to give me a little extra help. it doesn’t even have to be that much, honestly anything helps!! i found a vehicle that i liked, its not the best but it’ll get me to work and back home! its only $1,200! i have $400 saved up at this very moment. i just need enough for me to pay the other $800 and then to put a title in my name and a license plate and tag and first months insurance … i’m not really sure how much the other stuff is going to cost, because i’ve never had a vehicle or insurance or anything , so i’m literally stressing out so bad.