Hello, this will be a request of me as an indebted person.
My story is a little longer, so buckle up and I hope you manage to read everything up to the very end to understand, even though I do not expect that of anyone.
Before I begin I would like to acknowledge that there are certainly people in need a lot more than I am, some are probably facing life or death decisions, some have nowhere to live…but I still have roof over my head and I have food on the table at the and of the day, so it’s really up to you people to decide whether I am worth your money.
My story goes… 5 years ago I met the most beautiful girl on the planet, not only was she hot, she was smart, intellectual, spiritual, deeply connected to the universe, she became the love of my life. We are both still very young, but my love for her grows stronger everyday. We both had dreams of accomplishing something in life, something that can support us financially. We know love is important, but we are aware of the hardships life presents, when you have financial problems and not enough money. Finance are the number one reason for people breaking up and divorcing. So both of our goals were to meet ends need and achieve something that would pay us well. I was already working at the time that I met her and she was still in high school. Her goal was to be independent content creator or influencer (i know this may sound dumb to be a content creator, but its an occupation that allows you to be more free with how you manage your working hours, and she wasn’t ever going to settle working for someone else).
My goal however was to be a trader, to be able to profit off of transacting within the global markets for profits, which at the time I didn’t know much about, but then I was introduced to stocks, crypto etc. Of course I invested some money in, but I am from not so wealthy country so anything that a person invests, is already considered lost money. But I knew that’s exactly the type of thing holding people back in not achieving their dreams, not taking risks.
So I invested some more, trading was not my sole interest, I wanted to invest so I did. I am not going to repeat the story of a million people for you to know what happened next. I lost it all, kept trying to make it back, lost it again and again and again.
This post is not even about trying to make money that I had lost back, I couldn’t care less for it. It’s about finding my way out of it financially. See, I took a debt credit worth around 11,500€, and I bought couple of items on partial payments, so I could immediately sell them to get my hands on money that I would then almost intentionally lose (because why would you do it if you lost the first 3 times without recognising that something does not work). Fact of the matter is, I had enormous dreams of getting rich which have almost evaporated by now. I stopped and rethought my purpose in life, what I want, how I want it. I also recognised that motivation behind me trying to succeed in something that pays a lot is so that I can take care of my girl, my girlfriend. And the more I tried the more I f*cked it up. Of course until to this day she doesn’t know any of it. I am pretending that I actively trade and that at some point I am going to be able to live off of it. Truth is, I want to tell her situation that I have put myself into, but I can’t come up to her and say i am 11000€ in debt and I can’t repay it, to pay such a debt it would take likely 4 years minimum and if it doesn’t seem like much time to you, let me explain why it is to me.
Ever since my girlfriend finished high school, she saw no progress in achieving her dreams as an influencer, so she did a common practice, she joined a television love show to gain recognition, which by the way looked promising for her career after it aired, but one year after, it came out to be a total disaster. She was relevant at first and now the engagement is falling. In order for her to be able to maintain a living, she had to move to capital city, where she found part time job, but she’s also able to work independently on projects that are present in the city. We live approximately 1 hour apart by car, but we’ve always told ourselves we never want to live in long distance relationship. Well now we have exactly that. We see each other on weekends and not even every weekend, sometimes it’s just Sunday and it’s killing us. She can’t come back to pursue her dreams and I can’t go live with her because cost of living in the city is too high for me to be able to keep up paying debt and live there with average salary. But I want to, I am not the person who cares about the location of where I live, I am strongly convinced that your home is where your partner that you unconditionally love, is. So I am literally ready to do anything, my desperation goes beyond limits which brought me to the website here.
Our relationship feels like it’s slowly coming to an end because we can’t be there for each other when we most need to be. She doesn’t want to wait any longer for me to come to her and she sees situation as if I do not care enough for her. I also do not talk about my goals anymore, because I am so ashamed of what I had done. I stopped trading a while ago, but it was difficult for me to even pay up a vacation that we reserved for summer. And yes some people may never be able to go on vacation but me and her we are highly driven and ambitious individuals that cannot settle for lesser life. It’s going to ruin us, and frankly if we break up, which is a possibility, because the problems we face are getting bigger by the day, my life is going to end. In literal sense. I wouldn’t be able to take it.
What I am asking is not a small favour and I am sure many people need it far more than I do, but I am crying as I am writing this post and I am afraid that none of you will realise and understand how important it is for me to receive at least some of the debt that I owe, so I can pay it off quicker and move to my girl.
11000$ in debt
https://paypal.me/janpecenko?country.x=SI&locale.x=en_US
To anyone deciding to donate, I will be forever grateful. Thank you for your time to read my story, if you’ve reached the end.