My name is Carson Michael Haynes. I was born on May 23rd, 1992. I have one full brother that is younger and one late half sister. I was born in Missoula, MT. I went to grade school in Stevensville, MT. I attended university at the University of Montana in Missoula. I have never obtained any degrees. (Yet)
By the time I was 15, I was already making quite a bit of trouble for myself. I started smoking weed and skipping school. I eventually ended up getting expelled from my school and had to relocate from Stevensville to Missoula. I went and lived with my father. The bad habits I had accrued had only worsened.
I left my dad’s house when I was 16 and went to live with a friend over my summer between sophomore and junior year of high school. That summer I learned to do concrete and spent all of my earnings on smoking weed and drinking. It was also the first time I had thought I might have been possibly gay. I quickly realized I was straight.
My junior year of Hellgate High School I could start fresh and was having even more fun. It led to me being expelled at the very end of the year and was forced to go to an alternative high school. My senior year of lasted two days before I dropped out and went to complete my GED.
I moved back to Stevensville and was couch surfing until I met a person I would have never “clicked with”, and blindly knocked her up and married her when I was 18. Knocked her up again quite swiftly. She was a very good person with great morals and a kind heart. She is a bit mental but I won’t hold that against her. She is not very fond of me. I’m a bit of a dick. The marriage did not last.
When I was 20 years old after had having two children and going through a divorce, I had started dating a stripper. My new found significant other had a friend in Costa Rica that owned a hostel and restaurant. He brewed his own beer for the restaurant and needed help with all aspects and offered me a job. Before leaving, I saved up money working at a gas station. I bought a 1983 Sunflyer Winnebago and made the 4,300 mile trip to Costa Rica from Missoula, MT. It was quite a trip with my stripping girlfriend, her mother, and our pitbulls.
I moved back after a couple of visas had expired to stay at my father’s I decided to be with the TRUE love of my life. I had always known she was the one. It wasn’t the first time I had met her. I first stumbled into her magical infatuation when I was 11 years old. She was a couple years ahead of me. I was introduced by a mutual friend that was her age. The moment I saw her, I knew, no matter what my life had planned for me, she was going to be a part of it for the majority of the best and the worst. She will be my wife until I am dead. A few months after being back I received a message from my now current wife and was instantly excited. We started hanging out and eventually decided to make it an official label. We were together as a Boyfriend and Girlfriend. This was in the summer of 2015.
I had always been an addictive person. To anything that had instant gratification. I had never really experimented with much other than alcohol and marijuana before moving back to the states. I had tried a few hard drugs but never really liked those highs at that point in my life. Brittany Haynes was and still is an addict to opiates. I am too… Again… I didn’t care much at the time and she decided to quit when we first got together. Eventually, not long, into the relationship, she had wanted to get some pills. I was hesitant but agreed and we started in on one of the worst decisions I have ever made in my life. All this being said, my addiction was not her fault. I made the choice. Couples that use together create the much more complicated scenario worse. We eventually ended up having a beautiful baby boy together. Enzo Joshua Haynes. We adopted him to family due to the fact that we could not be the parents we wanted to be for him. It was the single most heartbreaking thing I had and ever will experience.
My wife and I split for a bit but eventually got married on August 9th, 2022. I wouldn’t change a thing about the way my life molded. I have every intention to change for the better and meet not only my goals, but succeed and shatter the glass ceiling of my dreams. We are currently homeless. Brittany works at a memory care facility transitioning elderly people with dementia to wherever we go after this. I am a starving software developer. We are getting help with our addiction, with councilors helping with emotional support and guidance towards stability. We take medications for our addiction and it is closely monitored and controlled.
I have done most pick up jobs like fast food and construction. My last job was bartending. Loved it. Killed it. Still looking for temp work like that.
I have always wanted to contribute to something bigger than myself. Something that helps friends, family, and humanity. Something that will let my soul rest in peace when I die. Knowing, I was worthy.
Thanks for reading! 