Where to begin? I joined the Navy as a young man at 20. Deployed 3 times. I didn’t deploy like the typical sailors. I stood duty in hazard areas on land in the middle east as well as took part in countless humanitarian efforts in the western pacific. I served honorably and have my DD214 to prove it.
I got out in 2013 and it’s been hell ever since. I decided to go back to college using the GI Bill that I earned. My first year went well. The VA paid my living stipend on time and paid my school on time. Then my third semester everything took a dive. The VA went three months without paying me my living stipend. I was living in the city of Chicago, going to DePaul University, and relying on those benefits. No one cared.
desperate to find a job fast, I fell into a predatory trap with Ubers car leasing program and took a job driving uber. The car note was astronomically high. So high that I was LOSING money while working. I had to drop classes after the drop date. Got Ws and the VA requires me to pay back all the money they paid the school for the classes I dropped even though I was in a hardship and provided documentation to prove it.
My whole world was turned upside down. I got out of the military into the civilian word without any idea as to how to really do anything. The military actually does shy you away a bit from “real world” responsibilities. This downward spiral the VA put me in by not paying me on time (the bills don’t ever stop), ended friendships, damaged family relationships, etc. I’ve been suicidal since getting out bc it seems no one cares about me…about us….
I don’t know if anyone is even still reading this or even cares or is thinking to themselves, “man this guy needs to pull himself up by his boot straps and get over it.” Trust me if I could I would. I’m in such a burying amount of debt due to poor past decisions growing up and making mistakes that as an adult now I just see darkness and no light.
I had to drop out of school and have had one odd shitty job after the other. No one wants to hire me even though my resume is stacked with various qualifications. They don’t want to hire me bc of my employment gap….even though a large portion of my history was military. Amazon wouldn’t even hire me bc of my gap history and I was a rated navy LOGISTICS specialist.
Anyway, everyone is always talking about how much they love our veterans-I hate even pulling the card-and how much they disagree with how we’re treated when we come home. And here I am, begging for some financial help from strangers on the internet. And I do need the help. God bless and thanks for hearing. There’s WAY more to tell. I don’t even have a number to ask for. Anything helps at this point. I want to start a family and be the man I know I can be. I just need a leg up.