Hello, i want to try keep this as simple as possible but explained in detail as much.
I am 22 from Edinburgh born and raised. Currently right now i am going through the hardest period of my life on my darkest days. I am homeless living in temporary accommodation with no money as my benefits aren’t accepted so basically i have no income at all.
This is the first time in my life i have become homeless with no where to go due to no fault on my own.
I can give a bit of background i am the oldest out of 3 other siblings – my sisters who are identical twins and our youngest brother who is 15. I used to live all my siblings including my mum and dad. Honestly, we have never had a good relationship in the family we have always had a rocky relationship for many years it was just getting worse the older everyone got.
Towards the end of April when my life changed me and my sister were at the dinner table and we argued because of the way my sister would speak to my mum me being me i couldn’t help but say something so i said to my sister you need to show mum more respect and then she kicked off with me and started to scream and shout the house down. We argued even more to the point when the burst open the door and screamed “I could ruin your life and i will ruin your life”.
She then went to police the next couple days and her and my other sister made false claims to the police now long story short i have bail conditions and not allowed to speak to any of my siblings including my brother, my life is a shambles i tried to attempt suicide. I was in hospital for a week for mental health watch. When I got discharged from hospital after a week I got placed in temporary accommodation which is the same place I am still currently staying at. I have to wait at least two years before the council give me a house so i’m stuck here. I am struggling for income as it’s really hard for me to find a job with how my mental health is going on and how physically my body is. I don’t get to see my mum all the time anymore and it breaks my heart as i miss my mum so much.
I can go into details all day but i’ll be honest i am a person who gets embarrassed to ask for anything and that is the god honest truth i am sodding lots as i type this as i have never been in this position before there is so much my parents can do when it comes to money as they can’t afford to give me money anymore as they need to worry about themselves which is right. My friends have all helped as much as they can and i am so blessed and thankful for everyone who has helped me as much as they can but now they can’t keep afford to do so anymore.
Now I have never been so desperate in my life i struggle to eat everyday and even take care of myself as my heart isn’t just broken my heart is in pieces as if someone dropped a plate and just trying to glue the pieces together again. My head is a mess my head is all over the place everyday i wake up and i try so much to pick myself back up again not a day goes by where suicide does cross my mind but i keep myself together for my mum and dads sake.
I am so embarrassed to ask anyone never mind the internet for someone who doesn’t know me but i am so so sorry for asking but anything helps and again i am sorry for asking but i have never been so desperate in my life and try and try everyday to get something sorted but for me every time i take a step forward it’s just three steps back for me and it’s just hurting so much where i’m struggling to deal with the pain.
Thank you for taking your time to read.