Hello everyone. I came across this website while trying to locate a way for me to get through and move forward after month after month of this year heading me the heaviest loads I can no longer carry. I will try my best to make this not to long. All I know if I’m doing all I can and giving life my best and my best isn’t enough.
I am a single woman with two daughters and two cats. Last october when I was out of town for a funeral, my now ex moved in his ex wife into our home after he’d been cheating on me for awhile. I was raising there kids when I was with him. I could not belong eve it. I fought so hard to be okay in front of the children who loved me like a mother. On March 5 th he and my little family I had with him and her, all moved out into the home he went and bought for them… During October thru March I had been giving him half the rent and was paying all the bills because of I didn’t I wouldn’t have the use of them. He always paid the rent and I never thought as anything of it but come February I received an email asking why the rent wasn’t being paid and we received an eviction notice. I had no idea that was coming … He literally was leaving me in ruins and he did. We had a shared lease between us and when he left I had to come up with 10,000.00 to stay in my home and as well to avoid being sued by the landlord. That killed my savings account. He also left me with a 1500.00 PGE bill that was in my name. A whole bunch of garbage in my carpotty Because with her came her other kids. I was talked about as if I was wronginh someone I got to spend almost all the holidays alone in my room while the family that had come into my life carried on as if I wasn’t there. I had nair put in my shampoo. I was constantly sick with digestive issues all the time. They would scratch my car, hurt my houseplants on purpose, my entire life was changed in one heartbeat. That is keeping how I felt and what I went through light…I was in the deepest depression. I had not worked in years as I became a mother to children who needed me because their mother wasn’t there. I had some side work as a broker here and there because I always paid the bills and in October started paying half of the rent. I managed to do it and now I have the house still but the universe continued to dish me with the hard road. And on March 8th I got the call…. My 15 yr old daughters father hung himself. … Two counties away. As I am struggling with life and thought I couldn’t take on anymore, my car decided to pretty much go out. My daughter’s father was very very abusive to me causing me to leave but I’ll save all that for another day. Long story short, now, in July. I am at my lowest and hardest point financially. My daughter starts her junior year as an A+ student. She’s just got her driver’s license. I can not afford to get her clothes for school. I can’t afford to buy her or even help her buy a car so she can start living life into adulthood. I have no food in my house. Every penny is going to bills. And back bills. And quite frankly, I spend a lot of time praying for a miracle. I come from a mother who don’t want me and I never grew up with any family at all whom I could even call for help. I just found out who my biological father was. And he’s gone. I only have myself and myself and giving my best at life isn’t good enough. I am looking for help if any kind as life RightNow is always in an emergency state… I thank you for your time and consideration. May the universe bless you all…
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