I was in fear making this, not sure about what would happen, but its come to a point where I’m really in need of financial help. I have been living in the same apartment with my dad since I was born, what I am about to talk about has been going on for my entire life and I have finally reached my breaking point. To start, I just recently turned 18, but this situation has been going on for my whole life. Basically, my father has been neglecting and abusing me since I was a child, and even before I was born he was abusing others. But before I tell you what caused my breaking point and for me to come forward about it now, I will start from the beginning.
To start with when I was born, my father would abuse my mother, even putting her in the hospital and go in and out of jail for it, he was always bailed out from my grandmother. After a certain point, my mom became fed up and decided to take me away from the constant stress he placed on us. In the end, I had to move back in with him, but he wasn’t any better, in fact, he was probably worse. He is the definition of a deadbeat, he is always gaming and never cleans anything or even having a job is apparently too much effort for him, meaning he is unemployed as of now. The state the house is in is practically unlivable if it were not for the fact that he forces me to clean everything for him. Just stating that he started this when I was only 12, not simple chores, but cleaning after every mess he made and my own, treating me as a maid, yelling at me and threatening me if i didn’t do what he said. Besides the state of cleanliness of our home, he also does not supply the food, I am usually left without food for so long until a friend or other relative sends me money so I can buy something. Now we do get food stamps for food, however, he does not use them to buy groceries, no he spends it all on candy and junk food for himself, and using any actual money he has on his video games and internet girlfriends. Going off of him not taking care of me, he also is the cause of me graduating 2 years late, he never enrolled me into school and didn’t care about my studies and constantly impeeded any work I had for his own selfish desires. Not only this, but he also has abused my cats, kicking and yelling at them as if they’re trash. With all this happening for 6 years the stress has built, and recently it has gone way too far. Instead of just insulting me and inflicting his rage, he sent it to my best friend. Now my best friend isn’t just anyone, he and his family literally take care of me in place of my father, feeding me and taking me places. They are more of a family to me than he has ever been, but they can only do so much. He went from being verbally abusive to physical, shoving and yelling, at the brink of a fistfight, over basically nothing. After witnessing this I realized it is beyond unsafe for me to stay here, both mentally and physically. And if you remember as I stated before, he has abused my mother, so seeing this gave me flashes of PTSD from that past. The very last reason is that he doesn’t pay the rent and our family usually has to help pay it, but recently they decided they’re done with him and stopped. Which means that soon I will become homeless, all because of my father. Which is why I made this, I want to hopefully save enough to have my own apartment and live on my own away from him.
I have calculated living expenses, anything will help at this point. I am very scared for myself. Than kyou for reading.