Well, first of all, I never imagined myself in this position, let alone putting it all out there and asking for help. I’m a girl that has tried my entire life to be independent, had many great goals to attain with places to go and things to see. That track has come and gone, come and gone, and come and gone. For some reason, things would always be working out great and then somewhere along the line, things would fall apart. I’ve always wondered what is wrong with me, why can’t I operate like a normal “adult. Since 2010, I’ve accomplished whatever it was I put my mind to. First, I wanted to try modeling. I ended up working with a very large, high fashion hair company as a model for 4 years. Then, I decided that I would go to culinary school and my efforts would be now directed to becoming a chef. I became a chef, fast tracked my career, was the first female chef for a long time successful (20 yrs) fine dining restaurant in Fort Lauderdale as well as first female chef for Cheney Brothers Food Distribution, as well as working for countless celebrities and VIP’s. In 2017, I thought things were really coming together when I got the job with Cheney, I was recruited and hired by the CEO and truly thought I found my dream job. Well, 4 months down the road, I get a call from my boss stating he is in love with me. After that, everything changed. I’ve had severe anxiety issues my entire life and the company basically used my weakness to push me out. I was heart broken. To make it worse, my family whom I always thought had my back, didn’t bat an eye. Without support, I became weaker mentally and have put myself into this hole I just cant back out of. Everyday I wake up and am productive, I teach my self everyday about something new and self improvement, however I am dealing with a manipulative and psychologically abusive mother who is doing anything in her power to see me fail. We lost my grandmother about 6 months after I left that job. She was my rock, he lived with us and we took care of her for the last 10 years. Also that day, another dog of ours passed away (#3 in less than 2 years). It took sometime to work through these things and I finally feel I have. The only thing in my sight is getting out of this little town(zero potential for creatives/anyone looking to push the limits or make real money) and away from my mother to continue growing as an entrepreneur at heart. I’m extremely smart, creative and innovative. I have more ideas to share than memories. There is plenty more back sad sob story but Ill save it,we all have one of those. All I’m asking is for another chance to get back in the race.