Hello,
My name is Lindsey and I am 38 years old. I am writing this because I am looking for some help. I am currently homeless and on the streets in Santa Ana. I am super depressed and have been trying to get off the streets for some time now. I have been through a lot in my life and I am so tired of being taken advantage of, being told I’m scum, getting robbed, stereotyped, degraded and put down all because I don’t have a home to go too. I lost custody of my 2 kids and I can’t seem to forgive myself for this. They are healthy and with family, but I still have this guilt that pushes me to want to get high to numb the pain! This is what my life has succumb too because of stupid decisions I made almost 14 years ago!! I have reached out to certain people and have just had the door shut on me. It’s super discouraging to have everyone turn their back on you because I don’t have a place to live and no job. I know that I have done this to myself and I accept full responsibility for my actions, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t reach out for help. I’m struggling. I don’t know what to do. I just want to take a shower and wash my hair!!! Is that too much? I’m not a bad person and I still look decent, but inside 8 am dying and crying scared. You can’t cry while living on the streets! I need to find a motel to crash at for a bit because if I don’t, I’m going to lose it. I have a dog that needs my full attention and I’m running low on food for her as well. I would be lucky to eat food myself everyday, but my pup comes first and I make sure she’s well fed. I am a good person, I am just lost and am asking for some help!!!! The last 2 nights have been the coldest and it’s only getting colder! I’m already feeling sick. I’m just asking for help with a place for me and my dog. To shower and eat and be warm and finally get some sleep. I’m sleep deprived because you don’t get to sleep on the streets. I’m a mess to be honest. If you can find a way to help me, I really am truly appreciative and grateful. Please don’t look at me as some freak or disgusting homeless girl. I am a person looking for guidance. Please help me and my dog stay warm and I need to eat. I can’t take this anymore. I’m losing hope!!;
paypal.me/lindsdawg1503