My husband and I desperately need help and we don’t know where else to turn. We’ve exhausted all of our resources, asked for help from family and church and have sold literally everything we could possibly sell – even things that were very special to us. My husband Doug is almost 70, re-tired and a navy veteran. He had to take a part time job as a security guard to help us make ends meet. I’m Michelle, I’m 55. I’ve worked as a pharmacy technician for over 20 years, but I just lost my job due to health reasons. We’ve both worked very hard our whole lives. We’re good people. We take full responsibility for our debts and we want to pay them. This has been very difficult on us. We’ve been without electricity for 3 and a half months now. That’s been the hardest part. It’s 35 degrees outside right now. When it’s that cold and you don’t have heat or electricity, all you can do is sit under a pile of blankets wearing 4 or 5 layers of clothes. And that’s all you can do is sit because it’s too hard to move around. Maybe I should backtrack a little because it will help you understand how we got here. As mentioned, I have some health issues. I have congestive heart failure and A-fib caused by an auto-immune disease. I also have arthritis and neuralgia. My body hurts everyday, some days worse than others. Some mornings the pain is so debilitating, I can’t get out of bed without my husband’s help. I try to stay healthy. I keep my weight down, I don’t smoke, I don’t take pain meds, only heart and thyroid medications and I run and exercise most days. Then 2 years ago I got shingles and for those of you who have had it, you know what it’s like. Missing any work at my last job put you at risk of losing your job, even if you had plenty of sick days. I can’t tell you how many days I went to work in severe pain or short of breath for fear of losing my job. I missed 3 weeks when I got shingles, boy did that hurt us financially. It only takes 3 weeks to put you 3 months behind on bills, and no matter how hard we tried, we couldn’t stop the downward spiral that led us to where we’re at today. We’ve been thru car after car too, we’ve had a re-possesion and cars that just completely died despite the money spent on repairs. We currently have a barely running 30 year old car with over 250,000 miles on it and I pray every day it will just get us where we need to go a little longer. We recently had to go to court for back space rent we owe, so now we have to pay double our space rent to make up for back months owed and we are being required to have the electricity turned back on by October 17th or we will be evicted from the property and our home will stay here in ‘storage’. Unbeknownst to us, the thermostat was set at some weird emergency setting when we moved in, and our first year of bills were outrageously high, so it got completely out of hand and now it will take about $5,000 to pay the bill and have it re-connected. Needless to say that’s impossible for us. I’m a pretty strong person, but I’m absolutely terrified at the thought of what’s to come. I’m crying right now as I’m writing this, because let’s face it, the next step for us is homelessness. My mind can’t even wrap around that reality. As I sit here in the dark and cold writing this, I pray with all my heart someone will feel for our situation and want to help. I am ashamed to say – I don’t think I can survive this. I feel completely defeated and I’ve lost all hope. My husband and I are in a place of despair unimaginable to most people. I’m one of those people who always helps others but never ask for help for myself. Maybe that’s the lesson I’m supposed to learn from this. I’m pleading for someone anyone to help us, we won’t survive this, and my husband is a wonderful man, he doesn’t deserve this. Please help us out of the cold and dark. Blessings on you.