Unfortunately, I’ve made some mistakes in my life. Maybe the worst of which is thinking that I needed more in life than what I already had.
You see, I had a loving wife and two beautiful children, but I thought we needed more. I thought that money would make us happier and give us a better life. I began to gamble and got addicted badly. It was fine when I won a little, but after I got that taste, a little didn’t seem like enough. I started to lose and needed to make it up. I drained what little savings we had and even piled up debt on credit cards.
When my wife found out, she left. I took on all the debt that we had accrued. I paid her back for the savings by putting more debt onto credit cards. I helped her fix the house to sell by putting even more money on the cards and let her keep all the money from the sale so that she could provide for the kids. I thought that in the end, I would finally hit that big win and be able to pay it all off. Make enough to provide. Have whatever that life was that I was always thinking I wanted. But that was just the disease affecting my thought process. The addiction was in control of everything.
Look ahead one year, and now I’m in control. There is no more gambling. There is happiness in the life that I have, with two beautiful kids, even if they live 200 miles away with their mother. There is also a massive pile of debt, that despite my best efforts I cannot tackle. I’m working two jobs. I’ve stopped spending money on anything other than basic groceries and necessities to live. At my current rate, though, I won’t be able to pay off the debt for nearly 13 years living paycheck to paycheck with no security net and no savings.
This is why I’m here. I’m asking for help. I’m asking for generosity. I’m asking for forgiveness for mistakes made. All so that I can do more than the absolute minimum for my kids. I want to be able to buy them a Christmas present, birthday presents and put anything at all away for their education. The first step for that is to pay off some of this debt. Any of it. I’m doing everything I can and it’s not getting me anywhere.
Please, anything helps. Everything is so greatly appreciated. And I promise, that on the other end, I will pay it all back helping out others because I never would have made it through this without others helping me.