This is the second time I do this and it’s really embarrassing to say the least. But I’m desperate and as for now. This is my only option.
I am a 25 year old Swedish girl/woman who moved in with her boyfriend in England. It was not the smartest move. Yes I moved because I love him. But I mainly moved because I was not able to live my own life in Sweden. I have suffered a lot mentally and physically the past 8-10 years. I have had severe panic attacks for a very long time. It’s not the attacks themself that has gotten me here. I was too scared to go outside because of them. When I stopped going outside I developed some type of social phobia. It has really ruined my life and it still is. Some might just tell me to get over it. Or see a therapist. I have seen one. When I was in Sweden. But I was pushed towards taking medicine the whole time. Which is also another phobia I have somehow developed. It is very hard for me to take medicine. Especially if I have never taken it before. I am also very afraid of being sick. I am guessing it is for the same reason.
I am now feeling very lost. I have no job. No friends. I do have my boyfriend. He is working a lot. But I can’t help him. I have tried working before. But my anxiety and everything that comes with it got the best of me.
I am now stuck. I feel like I will have to go back to Sweden if I don’t find a solution quickly. I want to go a course. So maybe I can start my own business one day. But I don’t have the money. I want to help my boyfriend with his teeth but I could never make that money. I have tried to find free dental treatments. But I think what he needs is dental implants and it is very expensive.
I don’t really have any proof of anything I’m saying. All I have is a letter from my doctor. It is in Swedish so even that won’t really make sense to a lot of people. But I’m not losing anything by trying. Maybe my pride. But I’m desperate and I need to ask for help.