I haven’t eaten in 3 days. I keep feeling myself almost pass out at work. I tried to conserve a package of bread over a week (only eating when I had to) but a paycheck I was told would be coming today, I probably won’t see in up to or over a week. I am about to be late on rent. I almost fainted from hunger at work today. I don’t have a car right now, so I can’t find a ride to the soup kitchen across town. I thought I was doing okay a month ago, but now I see I’ve gone and messed things up again. I don’t even know what mistakes I made. I’ve been so frugal with my spending, but every time my mom asks me for some help or money, I always feel compelled to help her out – this has been going on for quite the long time. I help her out with this that week, I help her out with another thing the next week – so on and so forth for forever. I don’t think I can keep doing this if it’s like this for forever. But I want to believe in myself. I really do. If I can make it past this week, if I can make it past this month, I think I can hold myself together. It’s going to be my birthday in under a week. That’s so funny.
I have absolutely no plan or idea as to how I can survive tomorrow, let alone a week. I don’t have any family that can help me – my mom’s in the same situation in me, despite all the help I’ve given her, and everyone else is always asking me for money, too. I have several medical issues right now, some of which I’d rather not describe, but I’m constantly worried over that. I’m not eating at all, I’m stressed, and my body feels like it may give out on me at any time. I don’t need much. I just need food to make it through this next week. If you are able to, if you’re not in the same situation as me or similar, if you can spare anything, please help me out. I’ve spent my entire life trying to help my family out. I feel so alone in holding everyone up. I want help. If you can spare it, please help me out.