No one expects to ask for help, especially me. A common thought, yes. But I need help and I have no one to turn to. I got myself in a bind and I need help to get ahead. My life was not always like this. I have always worked, I work hard. I actually love to work and I love my job. I made a couple of bad decisions that have led me to seek help from anyone that is willing to listen. My son became addicted to drugs. I often thought – How? Why? What did I do wrong? Well, his addiction led him to jail. He was in for 2 years, the longest days, months, years of my life. I never felt so helpless. I would send money all the time for commissary, phone calls home, etc. I know that he didn’t deserve the ‘extra’, but I needed to hear his voice and I wanted to make sure he was ok. I often sent money when I had nothing. I am his Mom. I have been divorced for 10 years, so I do this all on my own. He came home 3 months ago. Thank GOD! I was able to put my arms around him once again. You see, I did not see his face not lay my hands on him for almost 3 years. So, with him being home and rejoining society – he needed me, again. I paid fines, fees, restitution payments. Again, putting his needs before my own. He has continues his sobriety and I am proud of him for staying clean. I know it is not easy for him. But he is fighting the good fight. I allowed myself to get behind on my car payment. My first new car in 13 years. I thought I could catch up. Well, that didn’t happen and today they took my car. I was in such shock, all I could do was apologize to the gentleman. I am smarter than this, and I knew I could figure it all out. I got overwhelmed and there was no way that I could pay the 1,550.00 to stop it. Now, I will have other fees on top of that to get my car back. I am devastated, lost even. I have no one to turn to. No one! My parents are elderly and my Dad just beat Stage 2 gastric cancer. My other kids have no idea, as I am too embarrassed to ask them. They have families and are just able to stay above water. I am asking, begging for help. I just need to get ahead again. I need to stop feeling down when I am the root of the problem. I need to put myself first and the rest will fall into place. I am tired of smiling and pretending to act like I am ‘great’, everything is ‘fine”. It’s not. But it can be again. Please, please, please – if there is someone out there that can help me to be stable, once again – I vow to never allow myself to get in this position again. I always put others before myself, that is what I do. If you are reading this, thank you! At least I can be honest on here. If you find it in your heart to help me, Thank you!