Hi, I’m a single mum. Due to a very difficult, violent and complicated upbringing, I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, insomnia and a few other things. So far I have managed to support myself, I’ve always had good and secure jobs and was able to manage my mental health. This was until I met a very controlling and emotionally abusive man (although he did not start out that way). After the birth of my daughter he made sure that my self-esteem was non existent and that I was and deserved nothing.Then my best friend, my baby brother was murdered. I separated from my ex 3 weeks later after copping further abuse. I didn’t have anywhere to go and not even a knife and fork to my name so remained living with him for another 8 months. I now live in a small unit with mu daughter that I have been able to fill from scratch. I’m not sure if my grief was delayed due to everything else going on but I sank deep into my depression and was having multiple anxiety attacks per day while I was quickly falling deeper into the darkness that I felt it was best for everyone if I was gone. The there had been soo many times I had wish it were me gone and not my brother to a point where I feel guilt over being alive. I don’t have anyone, I have no go to person for help which is why I am doing this. Due to the seriousness of my depression I had to be hospitalised in a mental health facility requiring weeks off work, I am not back working temporary part time hours until I receive a medical clearance to go back to full time. All of this has left me behind, in rent, daycare fees, utility bills, credit cards, pretty much most things. Any help is deeply appreciated and although it would take over $5k to clear everything, anything and everything helps
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