I don’t even know where to start. My name’s Chris, and my girlfriend of 8 years name is Kristen. We’ve been together everyday since the summer after our Junior year of Highschool. July 7th to be exact. I used to cheat off her in math class even though I supposedly had a college level comprehension of math. Her being in my life gave me a future to look forward too and plan for. I didnt mention this yet, but I had failed 3 years in a row simply because I didn’t care to stay awake in school. I was in a bad place at that time in life, I didn’t see myself living past 23, and didn’t really mind. Kristens life wasn’t that great either. When we got together and she moved in with my family, Kristen gave me a reason to want to live, even if it was just to suffer for us both. I transferred to a charter school where I completed 3 years of Highschool within 1 calendar year, and graduated A B Honor Roll from Premier Highschool of Abilene. As soon as I graduated, I picked up an apprenticeship with Hawkins Air Conditioning and was making good money. I left that job to explore other possibilities, and found myself soon working on the Alamo 7 solar Project as an electricians helper. When we started out, everything was terrible, and it felt like everything was getting better and better. Then the project ended..
Fast forward a few years… Kristen and I are working at a Chili’s in Paris, Texas. Then suddenly we weren’t. Covid 19 breaks out and everyone is put on furlough. Unable to afford our apartment, and with bills piling up, we agree to move in with her father in Ballinger, Texas. Paid him rent, bought him a camper out of our stimulus money, helped with bills. We found employment at a steakhouse called BeefMasters. I became head chief, and she served. We made plenty of money and we’re able to start slowly getting back on our feet. We invest in a car for the first time in years, unfortunately making payments… As time goes on living with her father, it became abundantly clear that he had control issues and treated her as though she was still a little girl and not 23. He would constantly get on her about never seeing us, despite working opposing schedules. He even came to our workplace to argue with us, causing us to lose our jobs.
If I’m explaining terribly, I apologise.
Despite the fact that we have minor conflicts with her father occasionally, everything appears to be looking up for us. We take off to visit my mom for 2 weeks. Her father flips out on her, saying “obviously you don’t need my help, since you aren’t here I’ll just leave y’all’s stuff outside”. And so he did. That was 3 or 4 months ago.
Since then, with no place to stay, we’ve been living in our Subaru Outback. Home is where you make it lol. We sold every single belonging we had and burnt all our savings in the first month trying to stay at hotels. Legitimately everything. Our life fits in my spare tire bay.
I have been traveling around working on people’s cars to try to make money for the car note and food, however everyday is pretty much just struggling to get money to eat and have gas. It’s a cycle because you never have enough money for the next day. You cant plan ahead, and everything starts to fall behind. If you catch one thing up, something else falls behind. Well. At this point, I’m pretty much boned. Living off pennies a day has me to the point of the car being out for reposession soon (29 days past due), while also having bad sway bar links, shocks, a leaking tire, and a bad wheel bearing that shimmys now and I worry is going to sieze. I have tried and tried to do everything the way you should. I’ve tried keeping my head up. But I’m now asking strangers for help and that in itself is just another depressing aspect of life recently. I’ve always said I’d never be caught holding a sign because I work for mine. This is close to a sign lol.
I believe that being a good person, helping others, and working hard, is how you are supposed to prosper, yet in 2020 it doesn’t seem that way.
Me and Kristen always try our best, and always seem to come up short. Life for me seems more hopeless/pointless by the day, and I don’t think Ive got the motivation to keep acting like everything’s cool for much longer. Hell I’ll be legit homeless homeless here shortly.