I’m desperate for help, so I’ll be open and honest.
This past year has been an absolute nightmare. From the loss of my close Aunt, the loss of my childhood pet, the diagnosis of cancer in my girlfriend (luckily we are almost sure it has not metastasized past her neck tissue), and with the ongoing health issues with my father, (who is currently in the hospital and has been since April 23rd with no light at the end of the tunnel just yet) and health issues with myself, I am running out of hope. When I say this, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful. I know I’m blessed, and that things can be so much worse. I truly have so much love for my life. However, I am so tired. At 27 years of age I am no stranger to depression/anxiety as I have battled it since my childhood, but this past year has been the biggest test on me to date. And the kicker – I’ve lost my job for missing work, and my health coverage along with it. This is especially heart wrenching for me because the ONLY reason I took a week off of work is because I was under the impression I had sick leave, and was absolutely feeling desperate for rest. (I have trouble with insomnia especially these past couple of months). Well, come to find out, I had no sick time.. I received a rejection notification of the time I requested off, only after I had taken the days off. Then days later I received an email to find out I was being terminated for going past my limit. I always had good numbers there and thought I was well liked, but I truly feel like I was just a number now and am gutted to have lost my income and job I didn’t mind. I would have run myself into the ground to continue working if I had known this. I am absolutely crushed and with everything else going on I’m panicking. Today, I talked to a suicide counselor for two hours and I must admit, he was so kind and truly did help me pull myself out of a dark mindset and I am so grateful for our conversation – however I know this is a battle I will need to continue to be resilient on to the best of my abilities. My last day worked was May 9th, and I was behind on bills then (due to my girlfriend being out of work since March, and it is totally not her fault. Bless her.) so you can imagine the shape I’m in now financially, nearly three weeks later. I have no money left whatsoever and am not finding luck with work. I was hesitant to do this but I’m going to give this a shot, if there is anyone out there who could help me… I want you to know that it would mean the absolute world to me. I say this through tears just imagining the weight of this stress lifting any. I can’t express to you how much I would appreciate financial relief. ANY amount of money would fill me with so much gratitude, but $10,000 would utterly change my life. I could pay off my debts, pay my bills a couple months in advance, and focus on taking care of myself and my stress and my loved ones. I could continue to spend time with my father, wonderful girlfriend who needs me right now, and family, without the dark cloud of financial urgency looming overhead. I could perhaps gain the weight back that I’ve lost this past year, and maybe just maybe, sleep in peace a few nights. Life has absolutely knocked me on my ass, but I am determined to find any way to pick myself back up. Thank you for taking the time to read my entry. If no money can be given then I can’t possibly be upset, but I do ask for thoughts, prayers, and good energy. I could use it
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