I am asking for help for my children, not for myself.
I can’t imagine a situation in which I would actually ask for money for myself. It’s hard to believe it has come down to this. But, despite working every waking minute and selling anything that isn’t tied down, I need help.
I am the, completely sober and over-time working, mother of 4 children. I do not receive child support and due to my over time, I do not qualify for government benefits.
Aside from the considerable amount of debt I have acquired over the years trying to just stay afloat, in the last two weeks my car engine blew up and my phone quit working. I don’t have transportation and even if I had the money for uber, I don’t have any way to communicate or request a ride. I spend more a day just to be able to work then I make.
Even before the last couple week’s events, I have to find twice as much money as I make just to keep my children fed and under a roof. I am 3 months behind on car payments and I have to pay last month’s rent before I can even worry about this month’s. I have prided myself on mangaing despite the odds against me. But there is no room for pride and it has become an emergency.
I’m not asking for new things or a Disney vacation, my children know that I can not give them that and I am blessed that they are so understanding. The most I would even accept is the opportunity to get on my feet with a firm foundation underneath me. I want to be able just to get to work so that I can provide for my family.
I sincerely believe that the view from the top could never truely be appreciated without the firsthand perspective of rock bottom. I have the drive to climb out of this and hope that one day my children see how hard I worked and are proud of me. They are the reason I live and the reason failure isn’t an option.
I hope to pay it forward one day and be blessed with the ability to help someone who feels they have lost all hope.