So I am very nervous and shaky I’ve never done anything like this before and if my fiance knew I was doing this he would be so mad at me. But I stumbled upon this as I was desperately looking for loans again like I do all the time and people who are in these companies probably think I’m pathetic. I’m going to give you a little bit of History I got with the absolute love of my life had a crush on him since the second grade about 18 years ago and he got very sick and broke up with me. I got a marriage where I was very abused and I was miserable and I even tried something very stupid and not long after that I got the nerve to leave and I found the love of my life again and he rescued me in life was supposed to be great. But a few months later I got diagnosed with cancer and I had to have an emergency complete hysterectomy down my stomach and I got massively infected, I was in the or four times in one week in the hospital in and out a lot for a long time. And then I got put on home health and he took amazing care of me he did things he never thought he would ever do but he did it for me. I didn’t know if I was going to live or not for a little while there I was so infected. I made myself the day after I got off of home health go to work cuz we needed it so I probably shouldn’t have been doing that that was a long recovery and then covid really hit and shut down everything and I lost my job that restaurant is still closed. And I tried unemployment and I tried looking for jobs I went to a job and they never called me back. I’ve been waiting on unemployment since February and I decided to go this route because I have a low immune system anyways and with everything going on with me it was a good idea I can’t be around people who are sick. So I just finally got the phone call today that I was approved after all this time thank the good Lord but it’s going to be a couple more weeks till I get my payments and I am elated so happy. But again it’s going to be a couple more weeks and we have no food again we both lost over 40 lb. I have to have a scope down my stomach because I can guarantee there’s an ulcer from the stress and worry. In a couple weeks is my scope. We fight and fight all the time because of the stress he’s so tired he almost wrecked his van the other day at work. I’ve tried these work at home jobs nobody will hire me I’ve tried loan after loan after loan nobody will help me. I just don’t know what to do anymore and I am always somebody who gives and helps and and now I’m the one asking for help and I can guarantee one thing if I get help, when I get that check I’m donating what was given to me plus some. I have to get him gas money to get to work next week we have none. We literally have nothing to eat tonight. But I’m so stressed out and anxious and all these emotions I’m not even hungry and that’s been my life lately. Last night he went to bed hungry and I cried so hard because I don’t know what to do anymore. I tried to get help from the government I called that 211 that we have around here for emergency help they gave us vegetables and stuff but he can’t eat any of that stuff cuz he’s allergic to everything. But I am very grateful for their help we got shampoos and stuff from salvation army but again we’re out of all that now I have no body wash the bath with tonight. I’ve just never thought we were going to live like this I think the good Lord because of what he makes we are able to make most of our bills we had to put off a lot of things but we’re not worried about that we’ll catch up. We’re just worried about some food some household stuff and some gas that’s all until my check comes in a few weeks and then it’s my turn to help somebody pay it forward. Thank you so much. God Bless you all!!!!