Hello everyone, and thank you for taking the time to read my request. My downward spiral started a little while after covid destroyed a lot of the hope and faith in this country as a whole. I was working the best job id ever gotten the opportunity to work. It may not sound the greatest, but for me it was amazing and i was enjoying it. I had gotten a job working with spectrum’ may of 2020. Things were going fairly well, i was learning a whole lot of new things. Such as how to speak to people better and be a better salesperson. Truly learning things i wouldn’t have had the chance or motivation to do had i not gotten a job with spectrum. I was learning how to sell internet, tv, and phone services door to door. And the only reason i was able to obscure this job was because of a very dear & very close friend of mine. He unfortunately isnt with us any longer, rest his soul. However my downfall all started after about 5 months of working for spectrum i got covid, and lost my license due to being diabetic. All because i had failed to see my endocrinologist (diabetes specialist) in 90 days or less. It was a very excruciating process i had to go through in order to get my license back. But by the time i had gotten over my sickness it was far too late for me to get my license back and save my job. By then i started enduring a very terrible bout of depression, where i would do nothing but sleep all day long and pity myself. I wanted to die. And to this day i still struggle with these issues. I want to go to counseling, i want to be able to fix my car, afford my insulin, and take care of my mother who has been very ill for the past few weeks. Im at my wits end as i truly dont know how much longer, or how much more i can deal and or put up with. During this time i also lost my fiance of 4 years because she could not continue to stick by my side as i tried and failed to deal with the problems entering my life. Things have truly only gotten worse since the beginning of this terrible rut. I want to do better, and live happy but i have little help, resources, nor the motivation currently. So please if you have taken the time to read this. Know that anything you may be able to provide for me and help me with, is truly more than you think. Im in a bad state and i need a little help getting back on my feet. As i would be so entirely grateful of any assistance or help i receive . id like to show my gratitude and thank anyone who would be willing to help in advance. Much love. I only have cash app the tag is $heyarn