I am a divorce mom of three sons who is working really hard, doing what it takes to make provisions for my family. I fought hard to keep my marriage and family together, never thinking in a million years that one day I would become a single mom. After a lot of hardships, sickness, deaths, nervous breakdown, racism and just being another number in the jurisdiction system. I made a life changing decision and moved to North Carolina for a better environment for me and my sons. It was a struggle with juggling work and making sure my sons were taken care of. After about six years, I become overwhelmed with work and started to see my body breakdown to the point of having to be hospitalized. I couldn’t keep running this fast pace so for health reason; I decided to leave the job and seek other employment. Over a period of time, money became less to the point, we had to move out of our place and go back to Boston, MA with family. It devastated me to see all our things; I worked so hard for being thrown in the trash our being put in the rental truck like it was junk. The most hurtful part was seeing the look on my son’s faces and wanting to cry but had to not show them how hurt I was. Thinking this was a solution to our problem and it was going to be only temporary. I placed all our belongings in storage, never thinking what would happen next. We became homeless living in my car, sleeping from house to house and hotels, even had times when me and my sons had to be separated, feeling humiliated, ashamed that I wasn’t able to provide for my family. This lasted for about 4 years, due to a car accident my car was totaled and I received a small settlement and purchased a 2014 Mazda SUV which at the time I thought was a good idea. Getting frustrated and tired of living like this and seeing things not getting any better. I left most of our belongings behind in storage and took a leap of faith and had my sons pack a duffle bag each and called a family member who was willing to drive me and my sons back to North Carolina.
Some would say why move back to a place without family. It couldn’t be any worse than to stay in place without any options. We moved into a hotel, which was very stressful and a real financial struggle. But, it was worth it because I had all of us back together. This went on for 7 months, then I was able to get money together to where we moved into an apartment. About 9 months into the lease I couldn’t keep up with the expenses to the point we become homeless again. It was too much because, I still was trying to keep our belongings that were still in storage from going into auction, car payment and rent. With my son’s being older, I reached out for assistance and was told that my sons would be separated from me and go into a male shelter. I had this struggle back in Boston, MA and I had to separate me and sons by having one stay with family. This was one of the hardest decision, I had to make in my entire life and it hurt me every day knowing we weren’t together. This was not going to happen again. Working every day and not telling anyone what was going on, trying to keep a smile on my face and live like everything was okay. My sons and I went back into a hotel. Missed a few days from work and still didn’t want to say anything. Had no choice but to let my manager know what was going on. People where reaching out to me and I didn’t want to say anything because of all the hurt and disappointment from before. Well, I finally broke down and said something too someone and told them not to tell anyone what was going on. They became overwhelmed with the news to the point they started crying. They called me because they thought I was going to be mad at them for telling someone. Well it become a blessing, because someone had an empty apartment that they were not living in and it was paid up to the end of the month. They opened up the door and let us move there without asking me for any money. I had a longer commute to work and to my son’s school, at least it was a roof over our heads.
During this time decisions had to be made. I paid off the high storage fees in Boston got our belongings. Made payment arrangements on the vehicle and took that money and moved into another place. Not totally out of the hardships, the SUV and apartment is still too much to handle. I feel like a failure and was not thinking correctly and keep saying to myself I can handle this. Well, things have a way of coming back around. I am having health issues again and I finally had to come to terms. Yes, I need a vehicle to get around but, I can no longer afford this vehicle. After a lot of decision making, I have come to the understanding that in order to move forward I will need to give up the vehicle. My fear is that I will be left without transportation and here in North Carolina, you need transportation. Looking at all the money paid in and out of hotel expenses, storage fees, car payment. I’ve spent thousands of dollars. Some may say, I could have done things differently? Maybe or maybe not? I am putting my pride aside and am asking for financial HELP. Most importantly, I need to get a vehicle now. We are thankful to have a place again, it would feel good to be able to get furniture. Right now we are sleeping on the floor and air mattresses, no kitchen table and in need of other items. It would be nice to finally have a real bed again. Never thought, these things would ever happen to me? It hurt me emotionally and physically, now I am so ready to get back up on my feet and look forward to New Beginnings.
I want to thank everyone who took the time to read my post and who are willing to financially support. Any amount will be appreciated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your kindness.
Elaine Cheers – Devoted Mother