- First off, all my life I have helped anyone and everyone. It has become a part of me and in doing so I will help with either helping them move or let them stay at my place without the stress of bills or food so they can get back on their feet. I have even gone negative in my account because it makes me happy that I helped someone even if it puts me deep. I have showed my friends to pay it forward and have come across people who thank me that their Salive cause I filled their gas tank up so that they have heat to live.
I was doing good taking care of my bills and loved helping people, I still do even though I can’t even support myself yet. My life took a turn right into a raging fire of darkness. My friend killed himself, didn’t even see it coming cause being a veteran myself we hide our feelings well. That hit me so hard I couldn’t stop drinking after getting off work. Four days later I’m drugged from a roofie that even my friend didn’t see it coming. I woke up in my girls car to cops knocking at the window. No idea what happened and still to this day I don’t, a year and a half later. I spent the summer with my family, no job, friends becoming fake. I’m always there when they want to listen and all I needed was a couple minutes to talk once in my life. I even saved to of my friends from Suicide in the summer but when it hit September, came the hardest pain I ever felt in my life, going to work at midnight and reading my closest friend got murdered. My Doc says I had a heart attack, I always say something left my heart. My friends who I saved tore me apart cause they told me they were too busy to talk to me even though I told them how much I heart. One even told me I didn’t care about anyone and that was like someone take a dynamite and blowing my heart to bits.
I was confused, mad, sad and emotions hitting me randomly at anytime. I started working two jobs to keep my mind off of everything cause at this time only 7 months later from my closest friend got mureded I had two best friends kill themseles and three more to murder. A couple months later, six family members die when they go to the hospital. I was barely getting any sleep, wasn’t trying to break down.
A month later that changed, changing my life dramatically. I woke up in the hospital, didn’t know who I was, what happened, why I was even in the hospital. I only knew my family. Stayed with my parents and I didn’t even know I had a car or any bills cause I didn’t know what bills were.
I finally got a phone with unemployment and was able to call the bank that loaned me money for my car and they are working with, called my insurance and they are working with me. I’m playing catch up so I can help more family and people and show them again that it’s ok, I’m here for you, even though I got kicked under the bus on the lowest part of my life, I still help in any way I can. I can’t give up cause most people I know give up so I stand strong and keep moving forward, I am just for once in my life asking for help, asking to catch back up and asking to save me, cause saving me, I’m going to save my community and then my city and then my state cause I’m going to go to college and get a degree is psychology and civil engineering so I can always be there for anyone and give back to the people who need someone they can lean on. Any donation amount is truly a Godsend and a blessing and not just to save me but to help me get caught back up and get a degree so that I can truly help thousands and one day millions cause to me, every second of the day, is worth fighting for someone and I fight for everyone. Here is where you can donate and again Truly and Deeply Thank You. https://paypal.me/pools/c/84DY0VI1dx