Back on the first of July 2023, I became unable to stand on my feet for any amount of time. Due to Chronic Venous insufficiency of the lower extremities. It’s my fault I knew for a year and a half something was wrong but I wouldn’t take off work to go to the Dr. I wish I would have now. I have had ulcers on my lower legs so bad they took months for me to heal. finally got so bad the swelling I couldn’t put my work boots on. So now I have to mostly keep my feet elevated “toes to nose” is what the Dr. calls it. To me, it’s a nightmare that I can’t stand. I have worked hard all my life since I was 16 years old. Now 47. I’m the type that will eat standing up, and watch a movie standing up. I know that may sound weird to some but it’s just how I have always been. I was always on the go doing whatever I could to make an extra dollar. I used to believe I was invincible. turns out I’m not. I have a wonderful wife who always has a positive outlook no matter what the situation is and a 12-year-old son who would give anyone the shirt off his back. He used to always ask me for money but never wanted it for nothing he would say Hey Dad can I work in the yard or something or wash the car i need 20 bucks. of course, I would say yes you can. After a while, I started thinking about what was he buying I never saw anything new that he bought. turns out he was giving it to friends whose parents couldn’t afford to purchase games or whatever it may be his friends would talk about. I’m so proud of him. Anyway, now I’m one of those parents. I never thought I would be in a situation where bills are stacking up with no money coming in except what little my wife makes bless her heart she was always a stay-at-home mother because our son does virtual school. I have signed up for my disability but that takes months to get approved. I’m not going to stay like this. I will get better and I will be back to work. all of this is going to be temporary even though the doctor says differently. the first doctor I saw mentioned amputation. I never went back to him. Even if I get my disability it’s just to hold me over until I can go back to work. I have to believe that way because it can be no other way for me. I can’t do this sitting around doing nothing . I know sometimes we fall but we have to get back up no matter what the odds are. I had money saved that I had been living off of. I thought I would be back to work by now. I’m completely broke bills are due and Christmas is right around the corner. The last thing I wanted to do was ask for help and I understand there are people out there who need it worse than myself. I just don’t know what else to do. I’m telling you with every ounce of power in me I will get back on my feet and back to work. When I do I’m going to focus more on helping others. I have always been one to give just never went and looked for people to give to. I know I’m rambling on and I’m sorry, anything at all is a blessing. I’m sure there are others on here in worse shape than me and if so please skip me and help them. God bless you all! Thank you in advance for your kindness to me and others.