I used to be the reliable one. I had an 820 credit score, a great house, a husband, and I was hoping to have a child or two one day, also. I was the person who wouldn’t hesitate to give to those in need. I’d hand a $50 bill to a woman outside the grocery store with a cardboard sign. When one of my coworkers was diagnosed with cancer, I put $500 into the GoFundMe account his family started for him. I donated my vacation days from my pre-military job so others could take emergency time off. I always figured the universe would balance and I’d be okay if anything ever happened to me.
But I lost my husband. I came down with crippling rheumatoid arthritis. I lost my military career to a medical evaluation board, but only got awarded 50% disability, about $800 a month. I tried to cut back on everything, but the bills piled up. I haven’t seen a dentist since 2013 because I just can’t afford to, and my teeth are chipped in the front and crumbling more and more and I’m starting to get the kind of pain I felt right before I had to get a root canal while I was still on active duty and had my dental needs covered by the military. My credit cards have been maxed out and some are already in collections. My car is about to be repossessed, which will be devastating since it’s currently the roof I over my head.
I feel like a complete failure, so much guilt for not being able to rise above, especially since my grandmother’s health has begun failing. I’ve always felt it was a duty for the young to care for their elders, but I’m in no position to do so, living in my car and just scraping y and surviving day to day.
This is truly my last resort. I never imagined I’d be pleading with strangers on the Internet to help me get my life back, but here I am. Anything would help. My credit is dismal and I don’t have the money to pay a deposit in a rental. Due to PTSD from sexual assault while living in barracks, I can’t sleep in a shelter. I am on a waiting list for housing assistance, but I still have to get approval from a landlord, so paying off my credit cards and repairing my credit is important. But I’m afraid I won’t be able to hold off on dental work much longer. I don’t have to pay for my arthritis medication because the VA covers me for it, but they do not provide dental and the pain in my jaws and up to my ears is getting worse and worse.
Thank you for taking the time to read about my situation. I really appreciate anything you can spare, and I hope one day I’ll be back in a position where I can make the same kind of difference in someone’s life that you may make in mine.