Hi I’m a 43 yr old recently diagnosed with Lupus and I normally refuse to ask or accept help but I’m at my last hope. I was raised very independent and self sufficient, and life used to be good. I raised 4 amazing children. My downfall happened when I just my weakness of putting everyone else before myself cause me to lose everything. I’ve been in my car with my service dog since April 7,2022. I had a heart attack in may, all my other relatives aside from my kids have passed away. They are grown with lives of their own and I DON’T wanna Worry or burden them. I show them strength and resiliency and to give to those in need even if you are just as bad off and to stay persistent. I never let them see me breakdown or beg God or know the thoughts I’ve had of giving up. So I’ve done freelance and gig driver jobs but it’s barely enough to get me thru. It’s mostly just ran my car into the ground and I know it’s about to give on me. In September I found out I’ve had Lupus for years without knowing. I’ve tried government resources, online ways to try and make money. I’ve tried it all except shelters. Like I said I have a service animal and I’ve been abused several ways in life and it has become hard for me to be around people or trust anyone. I’m considered beautiful but I refuse to resort to demeaning myself, my values and morals id rather continue suffering. I attend church when possible. I used to volunteer at shelters and help out the needy back when I was capable. I still hand over my last dollar to someone if they ask. I’ve tried everything, I’m scared and my weakness is beginning to show. I want to live out what life I have left due to the Lupus the best I can. In a home making memories with my kids and grandkids visiting. I wanna work , I wanna start a business, I wanna sleep safe and showered in my own bed in my own home again. Have a running car to go see my kids etc. and to be able to have a meal daily without concern if I will eat. I wanna not chose between feeding my dog instead of myself. She’s kept me going and I have gone days without eating to feed her. I’ve had no luck with charities or filing government help. This is the hardest thing Is asking for help but I feel if I don’t then I’m not mentally going to keep sanity and hope will all fade. I don’t want sympathy I just need help and when I get back on my feet I promise I’ll pay it forward…. Please I have tried and tried to do this without help and I’ve made it best I could but I’m losing myself and all faith and I hate that. I had to sell nearly everything I had. Living in my car freezing some days sweltering others just my dog and I hasn’t been easy at all
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