Hi there! I really appreciate you taking the time to read this.
My name is Shelby. I’m a female in my late 20’s with bipolar disorder and severe depression. My whole life I’ve always tried to put other people first and when my feelings of hopelessness worsened to the point of rock-bottom, I knew I ramp up my self-care. I realized that the thought of ending my life would surely help me, but it would destroy my friends and family.
In order to continue to help others, I have to help myself first. So, that’s exactly what I did and started with small goals. I really honed in on my meditation, exercise, diet, and talking with doctors. I even moved out of state and relocated to Oregon so that I could have access to cannabis with CBD. None of this was easy and I was a mess all the while. The only thing that matters is that I’m doing better and even have new hopes that someday I will be able to get off my medications with the help of all of these tools.
My problem is a financial one. I was out of work for a couple months due to the state of my body and mind. At the moment I have a job, but my psychiatrist/therapist/medications are expensive for my income. I don’t see the doctors all the time, though I wish I could. I’m extremely low on funds, and on top of my car payment, gas, bills, and food I just simply cannot afford it all.
In order to help pay for everything, I moved in with my aunt who needs some live-in assistance. She’s in Florida, so I’ve relocated there, but have lost my access to cannabis-derived CBD oil. With a roof over my head for a couple months, I’m trying to work my tail off to save money to get back to Oregon, but it just doesn’t seem to be working. With a low pay rate and taxes, things seem to be snowballing slowly in the wrong direction for me and I’m starting to really get pulled into the darkness again.
I never thought I’d be at the point where I’m asking for financial help from others, but I’m a big believer in asking for help if you need it. My plan is to sell my car and purchase a high-roof van that I can convert into a tiny living space and get back to Oregon. This will take a lot of work and will be a process, but I know I can do it. I’m becoming more and more passionate about this idea because I feel in my heart that the freedom will help my mental illness and well being.
Thank you again for taking the time to read this.
Even though you are a complete stranger, please know I love you.