I can’t believe I am resorting to asking complete strangers for money on here but here is my story and hope you can help from the bottom of my heart. I have had a bit of a tough life when it comes to mental health and trying to get past my demons. I come from a pretty good family who took care of us. I have always struggled to know who I am and resorted to gambling to help fill the void. I should be way further ahead in life and beat myself up over it very often.
I moved out to western Canada 12 years ago and was in a bad relationship many years. I left that relationship and came out a bit broken. After a few years of being by myself and giving in to my demons I struggled. A wonderful lady found me and now we have a 6 month old daughter together. This is where I need your help. I walked in with a fair amount of debt and it always hangs over my head.
I had money saved for when the baby was born to take time off and that quickly went down fast. I was home and taking care of both the baby and my fiancé. I had to go back to work early from my leave as I ran out of money in my savings. Right now my fiancé is struggling with post partum and it has become increasingly difficult. It has been draining on the whole family and sometimes it does not feel like she is getting better.
I am currently struggling to provide for my family and I feel like a looser. Christmas has been on my mind and was hoping to make it special for both of them but there isn’t much in the tank to do so. Cost of living has gone up. My furnace is also making noise that I need to check out but afraid its going to cost more than I have. At this point anything can help. I wish I did not have this debt hanging over my head (35k) and it is taking away from being a good man and father. I started a new job Nov 1 but it is a commission job and takes time to build that up.
I am not a great writer and hope this does not fall on deaf ears. I really need help to keep my families life on track and keep the stress on my fiancé low. She does not know I am doing this and hate asking for help but I really need it.