Hello, I am a 38 year old man and found out the hard way and way late in life that I’m autistic and no longer able to hold a job due to severe autism burnout. If you don’t know, autism burnout can last years if a person is unable to recharge. Sadly, people tend to ignore my suffering and attribute my misfortune to laziness, which is absolutely not correct. Just a few short years ago, I was making $100k per year and enjoying the good life. Unfortunately, the stressful work and 100+ hours a week with no days off for up to 3 months is what got the ball rolling on my decaying mental health.
My parents both passed away years ago and I have no family, so I don’t have that option for a bed to sleep in or a warm meal once in a while.
I have applied for disability and have been waiting for that for about 2 years at this point. Being approved will literally save my life and that’s the only reason I’ve kept fighting this long. Disability is the last glimmer of hope that I have left to have any quality in my life.
I’ve spent the past 2 years homeless and in survival mode. It’s impossible to recharge while in survival mode. If you’ve experienced it, you understand. If you haven’t, I envy you.
Whatever energy I can muster goes into my very basic needs, and I have to figure out how to meet those everyday, which is getting more and more difficult. I’m constantly teetering on the edge of experiencing total shutdowns which are becoming more and more frequent.
I absolutely cannot get through this without some compassion and help from others. (unless I get disability, like tomorrow) That’s just the cold hard truth of my current situation.
I just want to be able to breathe a little bit. To get a break from worrying about eating or putting gas in my car with the $5 that I made from doing hours of surveys online.
I’d absolutely love to be able to get a hotel room for even a week or two so I can get some legit recharge time. But I’d be grateful for a single night. I don’t live in the best climate for car camping,we just got hit with the first bitter cold weather of the winter and I’m not looking forward to another winter in my car.
I appreciate anything. Even if it’s not enough for a room. A little gas and a warm meal are great too 🙂