My name is Dina and I am complete fuck up. I admit that I made a lot of decision in the past year based on fear which lead me from living in New York to the border with Mexico in Arizona, where I thought I could find more safety. I dont have family or support group ( friends I had are in another state) so past 9 years I was growing on my own and even was able to build a career as a designer. But after few sexual harassment at work, abusive marriage and being robbed, I could not cope and lived in the constant anxiety and fear. I traveled to another states, seeking for safe haven and along the journey realized how dangerous it can get.
I do not deny, it is my fault to be that gullible and trust sales people and financial insinuations and etc. I did mess up , scam car seller, and all the institutions along the way.
I feel hopeless, I have no more strength to fight the system, banks, I did before but it is like fighting the wall..
My car was repossessed week ago, because agent who had to make the transfer hadn’t done so in time, which made my account be closed.
I have no more strength and place to go to, and I am still trying to figure out what had happened. How did it come to this.. -jobs situation is pretty tough here, but I do take online teaching jobs and help cleaning houses while going for interviews.
The thing is – in some cases I dont get paid, people say- “well, it is Bisbee, it is expected..”
I just want a normal life again, just be at the safe place and not being driven by fears and insecurity of tomorrow anymore. Having a car will help giving this stability, plus I might be able to do delivery jobs.. I am not picky, even with Bachelors Degree I dont mind taking any jobs , just now it is very hard to move around without any vehicle and it is dangerous to do so with human trafficking in the area.
I was a human right activist in my country, and was always fighting for fairness and justice, as but now I am just feel hopeless to continue. Photo is from years ago, from my normal life, which I hope to return to.
Thank you all