I really don’t even know if this is going to help me for real or not, I guess maybe it’ll just be nice to vent if anything.
My name is Savannah and I am 24 years old. I moved 8 hours away from my family when I was 19 to move closer to other family. Things started off good and now it’s getting pretty rough. I have been laid off and fired for multiple reasons most being that I am unreliable to work. I have fought tooth and nail to keep some jobs that actually wanted me yet failed to make it on time, every time due to medical reasons. I do not have dental coverage on my insurance and getting any sort of treatment here without it is absolutely, insanely out of my price range. I am trying to manage keeping my jobs while being in pain so bad that it brings me to my knees. I have an abscess on both sides and 3 of which teeth are broken to the root. (From eating food) I have a really weak immune system which follows with weak teeth and hair, and brittle nails. (I eat my veggies, brush and floss) I’m anemic and I take iron pills like I’m supposed to and it hasn’t helped me entirely.
Well, I have just lost my job. I don’t have a car either, by choice. Next will be my apartment if I don’t get help soon. When I thought it was bad, I went and broke my phone like a clumsy fool. This is truly starting to feel like rock bottom and the sad part is, I have been here before. Worst part is, I’m not getting taxes back this year. In fact, I owe and I never have before.
I feel strange asking for money at all, however if I could somehow accumulate $400 It would at least be enough for me to get my rent paid for and I could get a phone so that I can get a job and work towards the rest of my goals. It seems like too much to ask for, even $300 would make a huge impact <3
I am a really great leader when I can be on the floor and I want to be reliable and make money again. I have started to get really depressed because of all this and I can’t afford to lose motivation. I just need some sort of hope that I’m not just going to whither away to nothing and be a drop out loser. All I have done is worry myself sick and my family can’t help me financially. I want to do better so that I may also be able to help them. I just need some sort of angel to help me get a jump start back on track. It’s getting hard to stay above water these days. I just keep trying and trying to do whatever I need to stay calm and focused under this extreme pressure. I thank God every day for the family and friends I do have that are here for me in any way they can be. 2019 has been a pain so far but I have hope that it’s gonna work out. It has to. I have dreams to live out.
Where ya at, God? I really need you.
All hands on deck.
Thanks for reading,