Like any child I had a bunch of dreams, but as a man gets older, dreams are fading like snow. I don’t even know anymore what went wrong in these 35 years of my life. It would be easier to answer the question, what is not? I missed a lot, did too many things that I regret now, because I will never be able to correct them. Time cannot be returned into steps of past time. Time flows around us and through us, it flows with us in parallel and yet we flow in it. The only thing you can’t recycle is the spent time.
Growing up in the countryside was not easy. Life was modest. While other children at school wore new branded clothing, mine was mostly second hand, most often received as a gift from relatives. The bigger problem was with worn out shoes. I wore the ones I got, often too big, but the worst was when the shoes were too small. I will probably wear scars on my toes from too small shoes while I am alive.
Life did not caress me.
As a child, I did not pay enough attention to dental hygiene, which resulted in the extraction of the first tooth at the age of 15. Although I visited dentists regularly, I was haunted by tooth decay. By the age of 30, I was left without ten teeth.
When you hide your teeth, there is no laughing, thus losing friends. No one likes frowning. People love fun company.
There are solutions for toothlessness, but they cost money. The poverty in which I live does not allow me to change that. The work I do helps me survive the month. No money for luxury.
In addition to losing my teeth, I also lost my hair, so with 35 on my back, I look like I’m 50. I’m like the worn-out clothes I used to wear.
Toothless and bald I am not an attractive company, especially to girls. But, the problem is not only in appearance, without teeth and hair, my self-confidence is very low. Almost non-existent.
I spend most of my free time locked inside four walls. I’m afraid to go out among people. I’m afraid of criticism at the expense of looks. Today, the whole world revolves around looks. Everyone is trying to present themselves in the best light on social media. It is the age of outer beauty.
Every once in a while, an article appears about a famous woman enlarging her breasts, injecting fillers into her lips and doing many other plastic surgery procedures, all just to look more beautiful.
I cry in those moments.
I’d love to fix my smile, but I can’t. I have no money. After all, dental repair is not just an aesthetic correction, it is also a health repair.
So please help me.
I want to laugh and more than anything in the world regain confidence. If I bring him back, I might come out of my four walls and finally find the woman of my life.
I’ll be grateful with any amount you could help me!