I just want to thank everyone who took the time to look at my post. The pictures you see above are pictures of me before I lost my top teeth.
My name is Azure, and I’m 32 years old. I have always had problems with my teeth. I got my braces in 6th grade and kept them until I was a junior in high school. After I got them off though, everything went down hill from there. My teeth began breaking, and cavities began coming up everywhere, it was horrible. I inherited weak teeth from my mother, one day she bit into a piece of pizza, and one of her front teeth just came out, root and all. Anyways, when I graduated from college with my BS IN Education and was able to get a job as a middle school English teacher working in intervention, one of the first things I done was go to a dentist, and talk to them about what options I had at this point because I was tired of dealing with all the cavities and broken teeth. I didn’t want to get dentures because at the time I was only 26 and I just felt I was too young to be able to take my teeth out. We eventually came to the agreement that we needed to pull my front 6 teeth, because when I smiled that was all that you could really see and get implants. The dentist basically remade my front 6 teeth, making them much bigger, straighter and as white as they possibly could without making them look fake, and in those picture above, that’s what I ended up with. I loved them. Everybody noticed, gave me compliments, I couldn’t quit smiling. I thought it was the best thing I ever could have done.
Fast-forward 3 years – I noticed that these teeth that were suppose to last me were lose. I could move them back and forth with my tongue, I knew something was not right. I went back to my that dentist, and boy was he mad. He never told me what exactly was wrong, he just yelled at me and told me over and over that I ruined a good thing. He then told me, that they would eventually just fall out.. and there was nothing he could do beside go ahead and pull them on out. He also said he would began working on a new dental plan for me.. well I didn’t even think about money or how much more this procedure was gonna be, all I could think about was me being toothless at 29 years old. That was something I didn’t even want to think about especially after I had already spent $7000 on teeth that were suppose to last much much longer then only 3 years.
Around this time, my mother got diagnosed with cancer – stage 4 – it started out in her colon, and had already spread to her liver and lungs, the doctor gave her 2 months from the time of her diagnosis. This was one of the toughest times of my life, so I took a leave of absence from the school ( it was May, so school would soon be out for summer) and agreed to come back in August the next school year. I spent the summer with my mother, every minute I could. My dad mostly took care of her, but i down what I could to help. At this point, my daughter was 5 or 6 and nothing made my mother happier then to see her granddaughter. July rolled around, and my mother was able to get out so I took her to the nail salon to get her nails and toes done. She laughed and smiled and enjoyed, but after that day, she seemed to go down hill; and she passed away August 15 – I’m not too sure what happened with me but I shut down, I started drinking way way more then I ever had, I fell into a deep deep depression, and then I got my first dui, lost my job, lost everything, the duis just kept coming and before I knew it I had four – I was lucky enough for my lawyer to get them down to three 1st offense duis and one 2nd – threw all this – my teeth were getting more lose but still intact. I was very careful what I ate and how I ate because I didn’t want them to come back it and it had been a year since I had even went back to my dentist, but I decided finally to call him. I spoke to his wife and she told me she was going to talk to him about my dental plan and she would give me a call back that next morning and give me prices. Next morning rolls around – she calls me and tells me that the new plan was a bit pricey but with the periodontitis I had there was no other options: the price she gave me was comical. $13,500 😬 I didn’t even know I had periodontitis, they never informed me of that, and I’m sure the best bet was for them to not even put the ones they did in, because they knew what would happen, they’d fall out. This dentist was trying to make as much money off me as possible. I told his wife there was absolutely NO WAY I could afford that. Now remember my teeth were still intact at this point so I had some time before they came out to figure something out.
Those teeth stayed in for about another 3 years, but during this time my life just kept going downhill. My older brother who was 5 years older then me passed away at 32 from sepsis August 27, two years later. Same month as my mother. I never dealt with my grief, and I had to actually go do weekends at the county jail for a passed dui, and at this time I had actually been working at a upscale hair salon so I doing okay, but I just hated the thought of having to go to jail for the weekend, so what do I do, I go take 16 blue xans, five 800mg Gabapentin – and no I was not trying to hurt myself or kill myself – I knew I had high tolerance so I took a few so I could sleep the weekend away and ended up overdosing on accident. I woke up with a ventilator down my throat in the hospital. I thank god everyday he left me here to take care of my daughter, and to watch her grow.
Let’s fast forward again to 2019 – I was sitting in the floor with my daughter and I had got some cupcakes and told her we could eat them when I got home, I bit into the cupcake, and boom, put came the right side of my implants leaving a huge gap in my mouth. I immediately went to my dentist, and he pulled the other side out – but he stuck to that same price that I can not afford. It’s been a little over a year since my teeth came out. It has hurt my self confidence so much. I mean I went from having three perfectly white beautiful teeth to nothing. When I meet new people, especially guys, I cover my mouth when I talk, if we make plans to meet for the first time – I tell him this story ( of course a shorter version) before he even meets me. I do have a little money saved because I did find a place that does implants and they will work with their clients. In June, I went and had the rest of my top teeth pulled so I could get a implanted denture. I’m going to go over to my other dentist, the one that put the first ones in and get those teeth so they can make my new ones look identical to what I had. My first consultation for the implants is Sept 1, 2021 – not that far away. I only have $700 dollars saved but even with them helping me I don’t think it will even put a dent in it. So anything at all would help me ..
I will post a picture of me that I took yesterday at church. My face has not changed shape at all yet, but I’m so scared that if I don’t get something done soon, it will. I still have every single one of my bottom teeth though. Isn’t that crazy?! I want to be able to not cover my mouth when smile or talk to someone. I want that confidence back. Teeth has always been a big thing to me. In my opinion, your teeth can make you or break you..
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