I’m Sonna Polazzo from Michigan and I pray that this lands in the perfect hands that God has chosen for me on the receiving end of this. I had a remarkable thing happen to me in 2004, I felt incredibly liberated from others’ standards for the first time in a long time. My entire life I was independent, had my own drive, raised my son, worked full time, and even managed to get two college degrees, with my parent’s help, thankfully. I wanted to ensure I could take care of my son and I because I didn’t want to rely on anyone. So, truly I was elated in June 2004. It was almost a year before that that I was suffering, going through a divorce because my police officer, control freak, jealous husband had strayed for the second time, and this time he had a true interest in the woman. Even though he did me the greatest favor, it did hurt badly at the time. But, not only did he have psychological problems, he was addicted to OxyContin, which made my life an even bigger Hell. When I left, I literally felt like I had come off some type of battlefield. Before I forget, two months before I found out my husband was cheating, I was put on paid administrative leave because my direct boss was sexually harassing me—yeah! Oh, whatta year 2003 was! So, I do whatever everyone else does to get through divorces. I lost material things but gained a lot of wisdom. I had to move into my brother’s home with his family. My 11-year old son had to share a room with his much younger cousin. However, we were very thankful because being around family is what we needed. After I built myself back up mentally, physically, and spiritually, I started looking for new employment. It seemed like it took forever, but finally, in June 2004, I interviewed with this public relations firm, downtown in my city where I loved and worked my entire career. I couldn’t believe how good the interview went. The pay and benefits were outstanding! I happily accepted when they offered me the position of Office Administrator. In my heart it was if God was saying, see this is what I had you wait for. I felt like my life took off again from there. . . . however, was that meant to be?
I jumped into my new role at my office in June 2004 and I loved it! Both of my bosses were left-handed, which was surprising to me because I am too. I had two coworkers that I was fond of, a female and a male. We all seemed to mesh well together. Things certainly spun around for me at breakneck speeds all the way into 2006. That’s when I started feeling off.
I started getting flulike symptoms, depression, lethargic and other symptoms that I shouldn’t have been feeling. Then one day I found it, a large lump on the left side of my left breast. It was a hard mass. My heart sank, I almost already knew. I was diagnosed in 2006/2007 with breast cancer (I was diagnosed wrong the first time by a doctor at Sparrow Hospital and I moved my care to the University of Michigan where they saved my breasts and life.) However, it did not come without difficulties.
Many people I know have often said that I have a mind of an elephant because of my memory of past things. However, if you ask me about what happened between March 2007-January 2018 I couldn’t tell you because of the trauma radiation and chemotherapy had on my equilibrium, my thyroid, my mental state, my emotional state, my hormonal state, my teeth and more. Now that I am on the road back to recovering by exercising, eating right, taking care of myself with proper diet and supplements, everything seems to be clarifying itself to me again. I want to go back to work, I have another good 20-25+ years left in me. However, I need a smile makeover. I don’t need the best and the most expensive. But, the one I have is hampering my confidence. In fact, I never go anywhere and that is not like me because I am an extrovert. I know that there are plenty of people that are in need, but why do I feel I should get help? Because I have been through the hurricanes, tornados, earthquakes, and lightning storms of life. Not only did the thief come to steal, kill, and destroy me, he almost succeeded in doing so: My only son is in Federal Prison, Barrie Isham, the Fed Prison in NH; His ex-girlfriend refuses to let me see my granddaughter, when I used to care for her every day; my 18-year old nephew, Michael was killed in a car crash on Dec. 19, 2016, and no one in our family gets together for the holidays. However, I still stand therefore. JOHN 10:10 Promises me the Jesus has come that I would have life, and I would have it more abundantly. My abundant time has not yet come and I know he’s not done with me. The scripture reads: The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. The only way I can ensure an abundant life for myself and to help others in need, is for me to sustain gainful employment again. I am not doing myself or anyone a service with my teeth the way they are and I plead that you please help me to contribute good back into this world that has gone so far over the line. Thank you.