Gosh, I don’t even know where to start. I didn’t think I would be writing something like this today, or rather, ever.
I’m a twenty-year-old self-taught computer programmer in college.
This is going to sound like a sob story for a hot minute, but please know, that isn’t my intention.
July started off like any other month for me, I’m sure for everyone. I wish it would have stayed that way… My mental health bills and medication are outrageously expensive especially without insurance because for some reason its impossible to find reasonable insurance. My job was primarily to settle that problem. It allowed me to pay for my medication and get a few groceries every month- but that was about it.
I knew about an ongoing issue with my car, it was running out of oil so fast all the darn time, without any sort of leak. My dad says it was due to being an older car. (2006 ford explorer) But never did I expect it to just explode one day. It always warned me before, the light would come on, and I put oil in it. Every few months I had a full oil change. This time, it happened so fast I didn’t even get a light. Within 2 weeks of putting oil in it last, the motor took a dump– while I was going 75mph on the highway on my way home from work– that was fun…
Everyone was fine- considering I was the only one in the car- I managed to get it off the road and out of the way. My family “car doctors” took a look, and over the next week, we tried every method possible to revive the poor girl. It didn’t work.
Within a week, I was working out a ride to work the next day when my manager called to inform me she had transferred my contract to someone else. I knew my meeting was scheduled to be renewed in October, but for some reason, she pushed it forward because some other worker needed a transfer from somewhere else in Florida, and-
Never mind that, that is a long story. Essentially, there was nowhere for me to transfer so I was terminated, along with my work partner.
If it wasn’t for that moment, I would not be here writing this today. I would be working and putting all of my earnings towards the car.
But now I don’t have a job, I’m stuck with availability due to schooling, without a car.
Alright- step one. Get a job.
nope- wait, can’t do that without a car.
Step 1. Get a car.
nope- no way- that’s too expensive, plus I completely own this car and it cost way more than it would for a new engine.
Alright! Step 1! Get a new motor.
The best price the “car people” in my family could pull up is a $1,475 motor being sold.
I have been applying for job after job, 15 or 16 a day. (On the massive job finding sites)
As well as at the actual companies and main company websites. (such as Walmart, Publix, etc.)
I have heard little back, and its honestly degrading. I’m running out of time, seriously. My emergency medicine money for my mental health is on its last use (unfortunately its medication that cannot be stopped suddently, or else I strongly considered just going without)
My family cannot provide assistance more than support and a day to borrow a car here and there. We all have financial stuff going on, I don’t hold it to them. I don’t hold it to anyone, actually.
One thing I would like to stress is, I’m fine. Somehow with all of this, I am managing to keep my head on straight.
That being said, I need help this time. I have been pulling all-nighters searching for a job, talking to people about options, coding programs to try and sell, anything I could think of.
The only thing I could possibly ask for is help with the motor. Just the motor.
My brother has offered to do the labor, and as for the spark plugs and belts I’ll probably need- that’s my problem.
The funds i may receive from this would ONLY be used towards the motor.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, thank you for even making it this far.
Anything would help, truly, anything…