I am a 46 yr old male.
All my life, I was bounced around. Everyone told I couldn’t do
something, I would do it. I met every challenge by ‘working.’
Eventually I involved myself in others life cause I thought I had no problems. lol This led to a couple relationships. I ended up losing the gift God had sent me, my daughters. I thought, alright, I will just work thru it right? Not the case. Work doesn’t solve all issues. I learned.
Anyways, I felt I was given an opportunity to heal and get back to me,
the person without issues. I met a new woman, a wonderful woman,
who choose to love me, even though I had become a ‘loser’.
She has been kind, and her family has been kind to me.
I managed to acquire a used truck to get myself into a handyman business. Hasn’t worked out cause everything I ever made went to repairs. I couldn’t keep up.
My last two years I have had 0 income. I been given firewood even.
My ‘wife’ works for min wage. She is amazing person. There are no professional jobs for her after layed off from her previous job 17 years.
I am very responsible with money and never waste it.
But after 4 years now, I just have nothing left.
My spirit seems broken even worse than my truck.
My wife bought a small cottage, well below trending home prices.
Her job can pay mortgage and buy the dog food for hers and my dog.
I priced out options for a vehicle and found even buying a another used won’t help.
My wife stays in town with family cause I can’t even get around to get any work at all to even have gas money.
My truck needs an exhaust from headers back.
Also some rear seals.
I don’t even know why I even considered to beg.
I am alone by myself out here all winter with just dogs, middle nowhere land. I miss my wife so much.
I don’t have anything to sell except my means to a living, a few tools.
My wife doesn’t drive due to a seizure before I met her.
I am caught between rock and hard place as I don’t have family anymore.
I need to get my truck back on road so I can take a job, literally any job someone can pay me for.
Being a handyman never really panned out as half time I didn’t get payed. People have become such scammers these days.
I can’t deal with that. I just need a boss who needs someone to work and they can deal with those things.
Anyways, if I could get a loan, which I can’t.
I have bad credit history since age 16 when I went out on my own and got burned transferring a phone to me.
I have criminal record also from small town nonsense which makes hard to get full time work these days. Wish I had listened to mom in the day.
The only thing I live for now is the love my wife gives, but I am letting her down large. I want to move, but her family is here and this cottage is on her when I promised to help her in the first place.
If I could get a loan, I would ask for $5000, and that would only maybe get me on my feet.
It cost 20 dollars just to drive anywhere, and that’s not far.
I wish I had a mentor, a wing to shield me, but this site is for begging.
Thanks for listening