Hello, my name is Carla. I am in need this time of year.. As a single, parent also raising her siblings- I made Christmas very good here at home but unfortunately my transmission on my car gave away a few days before Christmas and I find myself with no other options but to at least attempt to seek help. I don’t expect a hand out. I WILL PAY IT FORWARD! I ask for nothing, and have worked hard for all I have- wasn’t until recently I found myself unemployed.. and getting another car is imperative, given my outer city residence.
I am the oldest of 8. One of my brothers passed away when I was 6, the other I was 14. Joesph who died when I was 14 was second to me. He was born with a fatal disease called hunters syndrome. But he was one of those kids who touched anyone who met him. A true gift. My other brother died of SIDS and 6 weeks old. After my mom lost James- the baby- she fell into drugs, she was depressed. My dad was here and there sometimes- but he never was there emotionally for her, or us kids. I found myself having to be the functioning parent. Looking after my mom, the kids, the household chores and missing a lot of school. I was not literate back then. I could read or spell- and my learning disability followed me through high school. Eventually they put us in foster care. Again I had to be brave for my brothers and sisters. It was hard. We ended up in a bad places, my mom and dad separated, and I had no contact with them- or any of my other relatives for almost 2 years. At age 15 my Dad finally got us out of foster care. Now my MOM was still emotionally ill and on drugs. I seen her occasionally. At least once a month I went to dinner with her at a franchise diner. I was 17 at the time… We had good pasta and she had a friend give her a ride home, and offered to drop me off as well. I got out of the car gave her a kiss and hug and told her I loved her. That day though… I stayed in the middle of the intersection and watched the car drive away as if I were missing something. I waited until the car was no longer in sight and then finally left the street to walk into the house (Something told me in my head.. I would never see her again) . 2 days later… I found out she had died. BUT!!! a few weeks later, I found out I was pregnant with my Daughter Kassidy and know she was with me! to jump forward to now- My dad is no longer in the picture, he gave up. I am a single parent raising my girl and the last three younger siblings- John, Lindsay(Now 19) and Danni. 14 and 15… all alone. I know what my purpose in life is: it’s to be a caregiver for those who need me. and it seems this is a lesson I was being trained to do all along since day one. Of course I’ll be okay. Besides all that.. My faith carries me always. It is the pure will of a person to be heroic in these bad situations which glorify the purpose of our iniquities and hardships. Which is good… and also Love. I think that is all that truly matters over all. One’s ability to fight for another and his/her good fortune. truth is…..in all honesty- I am very lonely and sad much of the time. I raise three children alone, I don’t make much money…but I am ok I find myself facing the world alone everyday.. and that can be rather cold and a hard pill to swallow. Being the oldest of my siblings.. I never give clue that I am feeling outed. Instead I put on a smile, or my brave warrior face. I have been used, hurt, abused, and have suffered a great deal. But… that’s okay. You see.. it’s not about me. It never was. No matter how much it hurts… How much I want to give in, or how much I literally want to lay down and cry….. There is not one being on this planet who has tears that are less important than mine. I am tired.. but I have work to do, until the day I am no more.” these aren’t empty word on my behalf… I come from a very dark place. But I keep a light on always… I never lose hope. What you see is a broken girl who has been put back together so many times losing pieces along the way. I am not afraid to give myself up for others. And I am not asking for a reward. Just a little help when I really really really need it.
Please help my family and myself purchase a vehicle. I will settle for an old 1981 $900 junker.. I just need something to make sure we can move from point A to point B, and continue my active job search. My broken truck sits with a $2200 repair quote, I only paid 2000 for it 3 years ago.. so I figure it would not be wise dumping more money into it.