To anyone taking the time out of their day to read this I truly appreciate it. I will start off by introducing myself and telling you a little about me. My name is Monica and I am 33 years old. I am a mother to a 13 year old and very artistic girl and I am also currently pregnant with my second child. I understand many people don’t believe that whatever happens to you as a child should dictate who you are as an adult. I disagree because if those childhood traumas are sill in play today it is always almost impossible to move past it. Growing up my life really wasn’t the typical American dream. My mom gave my sisters and myself up at an early age where the only “family” I had was my step dad side. I know he loves me but at the same time you can not tell a child they are not yours because you are upset with them and you have been in the picture since the child was a few months old. No excuse!
My mom has always came and gone in our lives as she pleased. She was not there for anything important to us. She was not there for my first menstrual cycle, graduations, the delivery of my child and I am sure she will not be there for my second. She recently came around after being gone with no contact for 16 years, mainly because she found out she had breast cancer. I do not hate her but we will never have that close relationship like most mothers and daughters because she was never there. I found out in September of last year 2022 who my dad is. I have always been lied to since a child that he was dead. Come to find out he was an acholic and still in recovery. We talked faithfully for a few months and then he disappeared. I am kind of used to people leaving so I did not take it personal.
When I gave birth to my first born in 2009 I have never gotten pregnant again. I always assumed I couldn’t have anymore children. At the end of January of this year I decided to take a pregnancy test because I felt movement!! Like I have never believed the women on tv not realizing they are pregnant but it definitely happened to me! I was almost six months pregnant when I found out. I am currently 29 weeks and considering I have not started my remote job I have gotten my baby a few things on my own. There is still so much she needs but with her father paying everything and the money is tight it is almost impossible for him to help.
I bought my car in 2020 used for $5000. Absolutely no problems whatsoever other than having to get a new battery. My car has been sitting outside since October of last year because we were not sure what was wrong with it. My boyfriend decided to take it to a transmission shop to get a diagnostic done on it. Well, he received a call from the mechanic and the transmission he found has 97k mile on it for $1100 and with the part and labor it will cost us $2500. The cheapest option for us will be to just get the work done as we do not have money for a new vehicle. Once the transmission is replaced she will be good as new as she has always been a good car and we have no codes showing up. This is the time where a person would ask family for help but with my background I have no one. I have always had a life as a child until now that I had to make a way on my own.
It has been very stressful these last few months with not knowing I was pregnant, rushing to get things for the baby with not much time left, and not having a working vehicle. I do not like asking anyone for help but this is a situation where I do not know what to do. I would greatly appreciate if someone could help my family. We are good people. We do not bother anyone or wish ugly unto a soul. We are really trying our best and just need help. We have been together since 2016. I moved out of state to be with him from meeting on a dating site. We just need a helping hand. He is a hard worker and a very good father figure to my child. I do start my remote job on the 14th but I wont hold my breath because I was suppose to start the 20th of last month but they changed my training day.
If you need proof I can show it to you. My baby is due in May and my car is sitting at the shop waiting to get worked on but they will not start until we at least get the transmission covered first. Please help if you can as I do not know what to do. I am so stressed and so much going on at once and with the possibility of having gestational diabetes I could really used some weight lifted off my shoulders. I am even willing to pay you back a little at a time when we can. We are good with our word. Please someone help us!
My paypal is paypal.me/MonicaDavis89