I’m sure there are other people on here who are far more in need than I am, but I thought it couldn’t hurt to try to ask for help.
I am soon to be 30, live alone, and to be honest, I am just struggling and feel pretty helpless.
I have a seasonal minimum wage job and I am trying to go back to school full time to become an occupational therapist. In the meantime I’m just trying to save up a little bit of money so I can work less when I go back to school.
Basically, today, although I kind of saw it coming with it being Winter and all, I found out my car needs a bunch of repairs and well, I have been living paycheck to paycheck and do not have the means to get these repairs done.
I have recently been on unemployment and feel like I just can’t get ahead even though I have been trying to work as much as possible. I know someday after I’ve gone to school and have hopefully gotten a decent, steady job, I will look back at this and think – Damn, I was in a rough spot, but I have faith that I’ll get past this transitional time in my life.
In all reality, life isn’t horrible right now, I have a lot I am thankful for, good people in my life and good health, and this year, after dealing with depression and anxiety most of my life, I am just full of hope and optimism and kind of excited to see what the future brings. I think that everything balances out. My 20’s were a tad rough and full of trying to figure out life, maybe my 30’s will be better. I can feel a sense of inner peace and calm on the horizon – even if my life is chaotic. I think that if you put out positive energy, it will return to you in one way or another.
Now, do I have anyone else I could ask? The answer is yes, I do. I could ask my wonderful, amazing, hard working mother, who after struggling and working so hard as a single mother to support my sister and I to give us a semblance of a happy childhood, is finally relaxing a little and enjoying her life at 50, and saving up to move to Florida. She has helped me so much over the past years that frankly I am ashamed to ask her for any more help. I just want to be at a point in my life where I never have to ask her for help again, and can maybe give her something nice or help her out in some way.
So first and foremost, please help those who are sick or struggling single mothers, for they are the ones who really need it. It is extremely daunting to face adversity and feel alone and helpless.
However, if you read this and think, hey sure, this seems reasonable enough and I would like to help, then seriously thank you so much. I’m not really expecting anything from doing this, but I’ll tell you, if I do get any sort of help, my face will be like the moment at the end of Erin Brockovich when she opens up that million something dollar check.
Anything helps, but I need to ultimately raise just shy of $1,000 to super fix my 2009 Toyota Yaris. If I have anything left over, I plan on getting my hiking gear together, loading up my fully functioning car, and going camping in the White Mountains in New Hampshire in the Spring. It is one of my favorite places and I have gone numerous times, it’s a “happy place” of mine. My 30th birthday is this February, this would be my birthday gift to myself and a chance to get away, connect with nature, and shut off for a moment.
Thank you for your time and any interest in reading this, this is something I wouldn’t normally consider doing, but I figured hell why not, and honestly it has been kind of a release just writing this.
Best wishes. Take care.
Happy New Year!