Hi, my name is Bryanna.

I honestly don’t even know where to begin, and the last thing I want to do is write a letter asking you to pity me. I’d prefer to ask you to have faith in me…

Life has dealt me some shitty cards. Am I entirely innocent? Absolutely not. But every time I try to get up, I’m smacked right back down.

I was adopted at the age of 5. I was a problem child, as most older child adoptions are. I had reactive attachment disorder; a constant fear of being abandoned that didn’t dissipate as I grew up. I didn’t smile, I bit my adoptive mother, I threw monumental tantrums. A cyclone of emotional abuse between me and my adoptive mother built up, and peaked at for me at the age of 11. I began to self harm, I wanted to die, I felt alone and misunderstood, I was badly bullied in school and had limited contact with friends. I tried to kill myself and was hospitalized about 4 times. My mother’s “solution” to me self harming was to strip search me. On on occurrence, I told her that if I had to live with her any long, I would kill myself. She told me to get in the car, and dumped me at the emergency room. Three out of the four times I was hospitalized, my parents didn’t visit me, and I received very few calls. They threatened to put me in a “juvenile delinquent home,” whatever that is, and just generally berated me for my suicidal tendencies. I ended up moving out at 17, and I’ve received almost zero financial support from my parents since. They had me sign a contract agreeing to this.

I have chronic anxiety, depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, and borderline personality disorder. Despite this, I was able to move into my own apartment a few months ago, and I was financing a Honda Civic. Things were going alright until a friend got shot and killed over a petty disagreement. He was 20. Suddenly all the symptoms I had been denying resurfaced. Combine this with the stress of a career serving job at a prestigious, world famous restaurant, at which I felt inadequate, singled out, and barely made enough money to pay my bills, and I crumbled. I’ve struggled with alcohol abuse for years (even though I am only 21), and I’m notorious for blacking out. It’s a way of killing myself without actually dying. About a month ago I had been drinking at home alone and I let in the maintenance man to fix my AC. I woke up in my bed after losing 8 hours with bruises on my knees and elbows, and my panties were on the floor. I didn’t go to the police at first, because I thought it was my fault. I still feel like it was, but I brought the condom to the police because this man not only works in my neighborhood, but lives across from me, and mentioned “coming by to make sure I wasn’t passed out on the floor again.” Three weeks ago, I drank too much at the club and slipped away from my friends. I didn’t know I was driving until I hit something. If I had hit just a bit harder, or at a different angle, I would have blown up. My car is totaled, I’m about to be put on probation, which means I will have to give up my vices that help me when I’m particularly suicidal, and I just want to dig myself out of this mess. I’ve been trying to sell my body to get my savings back up and afford another car. I feel stuck in bed, in this monotonous cycle of watching TV, gorging myself on carbs, and sleeping. My adoptive parents won’t speak to me, and we had just started to mend our relationship. I am in therapy and on medication, and once I’m able to get to AA meetings I will be attending. This most definitely has served as a wake up call for me, and I’m desperate to begin rebuilding myself and my life.

https://www.paypal.me/amayafoxglove

Please and thank you 💗

Hello,

My name is Shannon. I live in Colorado with my husband J and our two children 12 year old”B”, and 10 year old”C”.

We have a 2000 Cadillac Deville that we bought used a few years ago. About a year ago it started overheating. After replacing the leaking coolant reservoir, and driving as little as possible with gallons of water in the trunk we absolutely can’t go any further. We need a new radiator. I have had some people look at it, but cannot afford a mechanic to diagnose and repair. It’s now been sitting for awhile and now it just plain wont start.  I’m fairly sure it needs a new battery..but we cant afford that either at this point.  I am a Certified Nursing Assistant working for a float pool, which is to say; I am on call and travel to various hospitals and nursing homes to substitute for those who cannot work their scheduled shifts. I take the bus whenever possible but I am not able accept many of the shifts offered to me. By nature they are often short notice and some can be up to an hour away. I have dropped from an average of 40 hours per week to just 24. My husband works construction and we rely on my income primarily during the winter.

We need help. Weve gotten so far behind and it’s getting worse. We are now living in a motel with our kids and pay almost 1500 dollars per month for 1 room. We have zero credit and owe nothing to anyone, but no credit is somehow worse than bad credit and we couldnt get a loan for a pack of gum even if we had a cosigner, much less be approved for an apartment or car loan.

So.

I am asking for help with a car. Or for help with the cost to repair the one we have. A new radiator is somewhere around 100 dollars on amazon. A mechanic is somewhere around 350.00 plus parts I’m estimating. A battery is about 90.00 at walmart. A used car would also be so helpful. We dont care what it looks like of course. But we are hoping that it will be reliable and sturdy. An SUV type would be ideal because of our kids, but we want to limit our impact on the environment as much as possible.

I am hoping that by some cosmic miracle that someone might actually see this. My husband doesn’t even know I’m writing this. Hed say I’m crazy. But, imagine if it could happen? What if it could? What if you, oh cosmic reader, should see this? Are there really people out there who would help some random stranger they’ve never even met before like this? I will be…so very grateful to whoever might respond. WE would be. All four of us. And to whoever might respond I’d like to say advance, that we thank you. For your kindness. For your consideration and thoughtfulness. And we appreciate all who read this. Whether they reply or not.

-Shannon

https://www.paypal.me/shannycats1

Hello,

My name is Shannon. I live in Colorado with my husband J and our two children 12 year old”B”, and 10 year old”C”.

We have a 2000 Cadillac Deville that we bought used a few years ago. About a year ago it started overheating. After replacing the leaking coolant reservoir, and driving as little as possible with gallons of water in the trunk we absolutely can’t go any further. We need a new radiator. I have had some people look at it, but cannot afford a mechanic to diagnose and repair. It’s now been sitting for awhile and now it just plain wont start.  I’m fairly sure it needs a new battery..but we cant afford that either at this point.  I am a Certified Nursing Assistant working for a float pool, which is to say; I am on call and travel to various hospitals and nursing homes to substitute for those who cannot work their scheduled shifts. I take the bus whenever possible but I am not able accept many of the shifts offered to me. By nature they are often short notice and some can be up to an hour away. I have dropped from an average of 40 hours per week to just 24. My husband works construction and we rely on my income primarily during the winter.

We need help. Weve gotten so far behind and it’s getting worse. We are now living in a motel with our kids and pay almost 1500 dollars per month for 1 room. We have zero credit and owe nothing to anyone, but no credit is somehow worse than bad credit and we couldnt get a loan for a pack of gum even if we had a cosigner, much less be approved for an apartment or car loan.

So.

I am asking for help with a car. Or for help with the cost to repair the one we have. A new radiator is somewhere around 100 dollars on amazon. A mechanic is somewhere around 350.00 plus parts I’m estimating. A battery is about 90.00 at walmart. A used car would also be so helpful. We dont care what it looks like of course. But we are hoping that it will be reliable and sturdy. An SUV type would be ideal because of our kids, but we want to limit our impact on the environment as much as possible.

I am hoping that by some cosmic miracle that someone might actually see this. My husband doesn’t even know I’m writing this. Hed say I’m crazy. But, imagine if it could happen? What if it could? What if you, oh cosmic reader, should see this? Are there really people out there who would help some random stranger they’ve never even met before like this? I will be…so very grateful to whoever might respond. WE would be. All four of us. And to whoever might respond I’d like to say advance, that we thank you. For your kindness. For your consideration and thoughtfulness. And we appreciate all who read this. Whether they reply or not.

-Shannon, J, B & C.

Hello everyone.. I’m a 23 year old full time college student in Ohio. i’m originally from Illinois, but reside on campus. my parents paid for majority of my tuition, about $2,000 but the rest i’m having to pay off. i work two jobs on top of taking 6 courses per semester; i work as a server at a local diner, then as a cashier at my campus bookstore. i’ve been working at both places since i moved to Ohio. both of my parents have retired this past December so a lot of costs are coming to me; my college costs are piling up, i always get extra hours at work but barely have enough leftover for myself. some days, i go without eating just to put gas in my car. When things couldn’t possible get worse..

Last Tuesday, i was driving to my diner job and I approached a red light. once the other side stopped, the light turned green and it was my turn to proceed through the intersection.  A Toyota Corolla sped through the red light, which resulted in him t-boning my car. The guy driving it was under the influence of alcohol, his BAC was way over the legal limit. I don’t remember the number exactly, but it was HIGH. I got a concussion and banged up both of my legs pretty bad.

Normally, i wouldn’t go on here asking people for money because i believe in working hard for that. My parents have helped me SO much regarding my education and i’d hate to stress them out. they are the main people i talk to in my extended family; i don’t see my aunts and uncles that much. I don’t want to be that person that only talks to them because they need financial help. That’s why i went on here.. to see if this site is legitimate.

I have talked to my insurance (which sucks, i have the cheapest plan), they labeled it as the other guys fault but since I have the lowest plan, they can only cover $500 dollars. When i received a quote, my car is about $1,800 worth of damage. I’ve been saving the money from my jobs to pay for college, that’s due in a few weeks. i have been saving change so I can cash some in while taking the bus. i’m slowly running out of money and i have been dipping into the savings a lot. i’m so stressed; i have 3 exams coming up on top of double shifts at the diner. The last thing i want is for people to think i’m weak. i’ve always been so strong, but God it’s been so difficult.

So.. since my insurance is only covering $500 (such bull), the money i’d roughly need is about $1,300. Anyone who is able to help, i sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart. I am forever grateful to anyone who offers their hospitality. if you’re unable to help, spreading the word would also mean a lot to me. I know this was a long post, but i also needed to vent. Thanks to anyone who took the time to read this all.

God bless every one of you. prayers are also appreciated!

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Hello all. I am a 38 year old single mother of one amazing 17 year old son who is graduating high school this year. In August of 2019, I found the strength to separate myself and my child from a long and abusive relationship.  It was a big decision, as this man, with whom I was with for almost 10 years, provided the only income to our household.  Until that day, I was a stay at home mother and only worked part time jobs or work from home jobs.  I suddenly found myself without any work experience and getting turned down by every job that I applied for! I didn’t give up and finally landed a great job providing customer service to individuals that are a part of a certain cell network. I have thoroughly enjoyed my work, and found great satisfaction in talking with and helping people all over the country. I also started volunteering at a local nursing home, visiting with and offering hugs to our geriatric community and staff there. So needless to say, I found great happiness in my work, volunteering, and being a mother to a high school senior!

I live in a very small town in a rural area.  It is very beautiful and I am blessed to be surrounded by gorgeous trees and lakes. Unfortunately, living in a rural area requires one to travel to find a decent paying job that will allow for career advancement.  The job that I have is about 40 minutes from my home which definitely requires the use of a vehicle.  There are no taxi services offered in my town, including Uber. Until January of this year,  I had my own transportation and did not need to find alternate ways to get to work.  As I said, I live in a very rural area.  There are lots of different species of wildlife, including deer, feral hog, raccoon, opossum, bobcat, and many more.  One night while driving home from a visit to my mothers, a (very big) buck decided to take a stroll across the highway in front of my car.  This particular highway is very dark with no shoulders on either side, only loose gravel laid down to help keep the weeds down.  To avoid hitting the deer, which would of most likely went through my windshield if I had hit it, I slowed and swerved left.  When I did this my tires hit the loose gravel and my car was flung down the slope that the deer had topped before crossing in front of me.  Naturally my car had slowed but was still rolling parallel to the highway until I hit a concrete culvert that was hidden by grass and weeds.  At impact, my airbag deployed and the bottom of my front end was smashed in.  The culvert was shallow, causing my vehicle to hit then kind of “jump” so that I ended up on the other side of it.  I wasn’t far from home, so I decided to see if I could drive home, which seems outrageous, but after inspecting the car and listening to the engine, seemed doable.  I made it home but the car was overheated when I pulled into my parking spot.  The next day, I was able to inspect it closely, and of course the radiator was crushed, the hood wouldn’t close, and the drivers side window would not raise up on its own.  I have had a couple of friends, who are mechanics, tell me that it can be fixed but will cost quite a bit.  I was quoted $1500-$2000 which includes parts and labor.  Since I own my vehicle, and I am just starting over, I do not have full coverage insurance.

Today I humbly ask for a helping hand.  Up until now, I have been lucky enough to have a coworker give me a ride to and from work.  But her and her family are to be moving at the end of March, this year.  If I can not get my vehicle fixed, I will lose my job.  The effects of that will include not being able to pay my bills, losing my apartment, and not being able to provide my son with his needs during his last year in high school.  Out of those things, the thought of not being able to give my son a great last school year is the most terrifying.  Please, I ask that you find it in your heart to help us.  I also wish to ask that if you do decide to offer help, you consider donating to a very special place that means so much to my family and I.  Please consider donating to Shriners Hospitals for Children.  This wonderful hospital provided the best care imaginable to my little brother when we were both children.  He was very sick and this amazing place took him in and got him healthy.  My father was laid off from work and my parents were struggling financially, but were never asked about their financial situation, never asked for their insurance information, and never saw a bill.  This hospital is a place of angels.  For more information on Shriners Hospitals for Children, please go to https://www.shrinershospitalsforchildren.org/shc.  At the top of the page in bold lettering, you will find the DONATE button.  I ask that you please take a few minutes to learn more about this hospital and all of the amazing things that happen there.

Thank you for your time and God Bless You and Your Family.

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I am a 35 year old woman with a 5 year old daughter, whos father passed away from pancreatic cancer 1/27/19. I have been in college since May 2013 and have completed all of the courses to get a bachelor’s degree, however I cannot get my degree until I pay the college $4,000. I was going to do so with my income tax return, but unfortunately got in a car accident and now will have to use my return for that. I have not gotten an estimate for the damage to my car yet, but I am pretty sure it will not be cheap. Thank you!

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Hello!

I was recently out enjoying my birthday. When I got back to my car the whole passenger side was wrecked. I cancelled most of the rest of my birthday plans so I could talk to insurance. As I planned any of the money I’d saved for that to pay for a deductible.

After going through the entire claims process I was told by Nationwide that they can’t help me because I’m in Indiana. I unfortunately don’t have collision coverage just uninsured motorist. Due to Indiana State insurance code Nationwide can’t help unless I know the other driver.

I feel lost since I rarely have enough money to do anything and the one time I decided to treat myself this happened. Thank you for your time and consideration

I was recently out enjoying my birthday. When I got back to my car the whole passenger side was wrecked. I cancelled most of the rest of my birthday plans so I could talk to insurance. As I planned any of the money I’d saved for that to pay for a deductible.

After going through the entire claims process I was told by Nationwide that they can’t help me because I’m in Indiana. I unfortunately don’t have collision coverage just uninsured motorist. Due to Indiana State insurance code Nationwide can’t help unless I know the other driver. There is still a small chance we will find the driver but after talking with surrounding business there’s no digital video around the area that the incident occurred and according to them no one saw anything.

For more information on the damages please see this paragraph. The damage is isolated to the right (passenger) side. The damage includes: a broken passenger side mirror, a heavy dent and scratch in the front passenger side door, this dent also destroyed the door handle, a further dent on back door, this scratch/dent is deep as well but the door opens, the scratch on the back door continues onto the quarter panel. The car drives currently but where the metal is actually torn I’m worried about rust damage. The passenger side also doesn’t really open.

For information on repairs see this paragraph. For repairs I’ve asked for estimates with used parts. For new parts it’d be CRAZY expensive. So for the repairs. They need to replace the mirror, replace the front door on the passenger side, replace the back door on the passenger side, and buff out the quarter panel. After that they need to even out the paint. Their estimate in time this will take is 31 hours. Therefore after labor, parts, and paint the total repair cost is $3600 on the low end and $3800 on the high end. I got estimates from three body shops. Each estimate falls between these values.

I feel lost since I rarely have enough money to do anything and the one time I decided to treat myself this happened. I work for a non profit and while my work is rewarding it always keeps me budgeting tightly. With this extra bill I can’t fathom what to do. I hope that one day I can return any kindness that is gifted to me. Thank you for your time and consideration.

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I just recently was finally able to get a part-time job. I was also looking into other jobs to make more money as the first one is very part-time.

My car died suddenly last Sunday. It had definite work needed that I was getting to ASAP, but this was different. I had it towed and shop said the computer (ECM?) died. Said it would have to be replaced and programmed, which would cost $950.00. I don’t have anyone who is willing or able to help me. I am new to this area. I literally only have the money to cove the diagnostic that was done on my car. The auto shop is H&A Auto in Norristown, PA. I am in Media, PA.

I am going to lose my job.I cannot afford to pay for Uber/Cabs to get to and from work as I would end up spending all the money I made on those rides. Public transportation doesn’t go near the locations I work and the timing wouldn’t work. I cannot ride a bike (don’t have one) and also I have debilitating back and hip conditions (I have been managing wok with them as it wasn’t very physical in nature).

I had other employers who were interested in interviewing me, but even if I got one of the positions (ex. one at an animal shelter), most of what I would make would go to Uber/Cabs. Since I am losing my job, I am going to default on my Navient Loans and they are going to write them off to a collection agency. Now, if it was just about me, then I don’t care what hell they put me through. But, my mom is a co-signer on one of the loans, so she would be under threat, too. She has no money and is very sick.

I can’t even get to the store without getting a ride I have to pay for. I have exhausted all options that I know of. I am going to have to tell H&A Auto to send my car to the junk shop. I am at the end of myself. I don’t know what to do. I just wish that God would intervene and send someone to help me. I am not into drugs, I don’t drink, I don’t have kids–I barely exist. I did not ask for this. I have had and currently have many obstacles. This is just the final straw.

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Hello,

I’m sure there are other people on here who are far more in need than I am, but I thought it couldn’t hurt to try to ask for help.
I am soon to be 30, live alone, and to be honest, I am just struggling and feel pretty helpless.
I have a seasonal minimum wage job and I am trying to go back to school full time to become an occupational therapist. In the meantime I’m just trying to save up a little bit of money so I can work less when I go back to school.

Basically, today, although I kind of saw it coming with it being Winter and all, I found out my car needs a bunch of repairs and well, I have been living paycheck to paycheck and do not have the means to get these repairs done.

I have recently been on unemployment and feel like I just can’t get ahead even though I have been trying to work as much as possible. I know someday after I’ve gone to school and have hopefully gotten a decent, steady job, I will look back at this and think – Damn, I was in a rough spot, but I have faith that I’ll get past this transitional time in my life.

In all reality, life isn’t horrible right now, I have a lot I am thankful for, good people in my life and good health, and this year, after dealing with depression and anxiety most of my life, I am just full of hope and optimism and kind of excited to see what the future brings. I think that everything balances out. My 20’s were a tad rough and full of trying to figure out life, maybe my 30’s will be better. I can feel a sense of inner peace and calm on the horizon – even if my life is chaotic. I think that if you put out positive energy, it will return to you in one way or another.

Now, do I have anyone else I could ask? The answer is yes, I do. I could ask my wonderful, amazing, hard working mother, who after struggling and working so hard as a single mother to support my sister and I to give us a semblance of a happy childhood, is finally relaxing a little and enjoying her life at 50, and saving up to move to Florida. She has helped me so much over the past years that frankly I am ashamed to ask her for any more help. I just want to be at a point in my life where I never have to ask her for help again, and can maybe give her something nice or help her out in some way.

So first and foremost, please help those who are sick or struggling single mothers, for they are the ones who really need it. It is extremely daunting to face adversity and feel alone and helpless.

However, if you read this and think, hey sure, this seems reasonable enough and I would like to help, then seriously thank you so much. I’m not really expecting anything from doing this, but I’ll tell you, if I do get any sort of help, my face will be like the moment at the end of Erin Brockovich when she opens up that million something dollar check.

Anything helps, but I need to ultimately raise just shy of $1,000 to super fix my 2009 Toyota Yaris. If I have anything left over, I plan on getting my hiking gear together, loading up my fully functioning car, and going camping in the White Mountains in New Hampshire in the Spring. It is one of my favorite places and I have gone numerous times, it’s a “happy place” of mine. My 30th birthday is this February, this would be my birthday gift to myself and a chance to get away, connect with nature, and shut off for a moment.
Thank you for your time and any interest in reading this, this is something I wouldn’t normally consider doing, but I figured hell why not, and honestly it has been kind of a release just writing this.
Best wishes. Take care.
Happy New Year!