My name is Ashley. I hate to run through my son story but don’t know how else to explain why I am here. I grew up the oldest of four kids as well as the black sheep (I was emotional..my family despised emotion). My mother always told me I wasn’t good enough because of my weight even though I was never that heavy. I was told in every way what a failure I was. I also had a huge birthmark between my eyebrows up until the summer I turned 17. I was insanely insecure and afraid to look people in the eye. My ex fiance cheated on me over and over and when I found out I tried to be strong for him and help him through. He eventually left me anyway. I was raped by two men when I was 19. I have a bachelor’s in graphic design and I lost my job to layoffs right before corona hit. Because of this I had to leave my home and live in my car with my 3 cats for 2 months because my family didnt want to help even though they have 3 empty bedrooms in their house and are well off. I have always been there for everyone in my family and have and would drop anything for any of them at any time. I’m not a bad person, I don’t drink or do drugs. I smoke weed occasionally for neck pain and anxiety. I now work as a webcam model and I have started an online adult toy store sugarspicetoys.com. The issue is I have no idea how to do marketing, technical things the site needs and overall I am in over my head. I paid the business license and all other fees to get this up and running. I pay shopify monthly and I have not made a single sale. I need help so bad but can’t afford it. I live paycheck to paycheck but I’m not getting by. I have collections accounts that are hurting my credit and i constantly feel like I am drowning. I am an optimist however so I see the best in people, believe in myself and never quit believing things will be if nothing else just less stressful one day. I have always lived in survival mode and want so badly to know what the other side of living feels like. I have never done anything like this but I don’t know what else to do anymore. I pray someone will see this and understand what this is like. I know my situation is laughable compared to some of the stories I have read on here and I almost feel ashamed asking for help when others have is so much worst. I just am at a loss now and have no idea what else to do. Thank you for reading this. My pics are all of my cats lol. They are my world. I rescued them at 3 weeks and the hardest part for me was what they went through.
My link is paypal.me/ashleyes124
Thank you so much.